Q&A With Leslie Swartz
Q: What is your book about?
A: The Seventh Day Series tells the story of a found family of human-born angels, witches, a vampire queen, and Lucifer navigating complicated romantic and familial relationships while saving humanity from one Apocalypse after another. There are epic battles and love stories, funny and deep conversations, and a lot of twists. A reader called it, “Supernatural meets Shameless but with money” and, honestly, I can’t describe it any better than that.
Q: Why did you focus on myths/legends from that particular region?
A: In Seventh Day, there are angels from the Judeo-Christian/Muslim faiths, Norse gods, Maori legends, and Wiccan traditions. Vampires, werewolves, demons, and golem. I wanted to bring all those things together in one universe as a way of making them seem more realistic. Over the course of the series, readers see how they’re all kind of connected and play their parts in the grand scheme of things.
Q: Who is your favorite mythical figure?
A: I think Loki is my favorite because Loki can be anything, create anything, and is always up for a good time. Plus, who doesn’t love a mischievous trickster?
Q: If you could hang out with one mythical god, who would it be and why?
A: Loki for the above reasons and maybe a few inappropriate ones.
Q: Do you plan on writing similar books in the future?
A: I’m currently writing an urban fantasy novel based on Greek mythology and religious lore. It’s a stand-alone right now, not seven books like The Seventh Day, but it has series potential, so we’ll see.
Excerpt from Seraphim, book one in The Seventh Day Series:
“I was hoping to do this gently but you give me no choice.” He opened his arms and waved his hands toward himself. The remaining servants all came forward, shock and horror covering their faces as they were forced to move closer and closer to their Queen. For the first time in her very long life, Allydia saw fear in her stepmother’s eyes. The servants now rushed to Lilith, grabbing her and holding her steady. She fought them, tossing their bodies around like pillows. But they kept coming. Even the ones she killed reanimated and came for her. They forced her down into her throne and held her there as her brother neared.
“No!” she barked. “You can’t!”
Allydia backed away, knowing what the man was capable of.
Lilith’s anger turned to fear as her fate seemed sealed. “Please, brother,” she begged. “We can all rule this world together. You don’t always have to do what He says!”
“You know that simply isn’t true,” he said, kneeling before her and placing his hand on her head. He began the incantation while she screamed.
“Stop!” she pleaded. “Don’t! Please! LUCIFER!”
I'm a forty-one-year-old poet turned novelist with three kids and a pretty serious Dr. Pepper addiction. I write urban fantasy and horror with plans to jump into sci-fi at some point. I'm loud, funny, and I prefer the term "eccentric".
Curses and Chaos By Tod Tinker
Curses and Chaos
© Tod Tinker
“What right do you have to tell me that you can’t help me?”
I swallow the groan that vibrates in my throat as those words greet me the moment I step into the office. With the turning of the moon last night, I woke this morning with a headache, and I was hoping for a quiet day today.
Obviously, that’s not to be.
“Can I help you?” I ask, stepping up behind the man who is harassing my front-desk staff. A collective flinch circles the waiting room, but I ignore it. The groan I suppressed has added a slight growl to my voice, but I suspect the reaction comes more from a general recognition of who I am.
Recognition the man now turning to face me shows no sign of.
More’s the pity.
“I should hope so!” the man snaps, his own voice dropping into a growl.
I take a quick inventory of his amber eyes, bared teeth, and the curl of his fingers that does nothing to hide the length and filth of his nails and check a sigh.
“What seems to be the problem?” I ask, even though I’m pretty sure I already know.
“Your guard dog here,” he sneers, in a tone that makes it clear he’s thinking of a much worse word, “claims she can’t help me find a job. Even though your agency is supposed to help those of us with certain . . . conditions.”
Light coughs and shifting sound from around the waiting room. Movement catches at the corner of my eye, but I don’t take my eyes off the man. Last night was the full moon, and I’d be a fool to look away from him if what I suspect is true.
“And what condition do you have, Mr. . . . ?”
The man grunts. “Monal. Welof Monal.”
I nod. “Mr. Monal. Well?”
He grunts again but still doesn’t seem to notice the discomfort filling the waiting room. “Lycanthropy.”
A soft snicker drifts from one corner of the room that I didn’t notice anyone in earlier, and I just barely hold back from rolling my eyes. Thankfully, Mr. Monal doesn’t seem to have noticed the laughter at his expense, but a leprechaun turned invisible due to an accident is hardly going to help this conversation.
“And were you cursed with lycanthropy, Mr. Monal?”
That seems to confuse the werewolf. He blinks and steps back, breaking out of full-challenge mode.
“What? What do you mean?”
Again, I check a sigh. “I mean, Mr. Monal, were you cursed with lycanthropy, or were you, as your name suggests, born a werewolf?”
His sharp cheeks turn red. “What does that have to do with anything?”
This time, I roll my eyes without bothering to hold back. “Mr. Monal, this is the Hexes, Enchantments, and Curses Agency for Temporary Employment. Unless you have actually been cursed to change into a wolf once a month—a situation I have seen maybe once in the more than twenty years I have been running this agency—we cannot help you. There are plenty of agencies set up to help were-animals and other races who might face discrimination in the workplace, but this is not one of them. Do I make myself clear?”
By the time I’ve finished, my voice has fallen into a deep growl that could rival any werewolf’s, and Mr. Monal stares at me with wide eyes and an open mouth. I grimace as I realize I’m leaning over him, my shadow extending farther than it should and a wind howling in my ears and tugging at the bun that holds my hair back.
Huffing softly, I straighten and whisk one hand up toward my shoulder, banishing both the wind and the extended shadow like annoying flies. This is exactly what I was hoping to avoid, but some confrontations cannot be prevented.
“Well?” I ask again when the silence throughout the office has grown unbearable.
The werewolf swallows and lowers his head, lifting his shoulders around his ears as though that will help him hide. “I, uh, was born a werewolf, ma’am. I, um . . . I’m sorry for bothering you.”
He beats a hasty retreat after that. As the agency door swings closed, I release a long breath, and the silence breaks.
“Thank you, Director Triod,” says the nymph who is currently running the front desk. “I was beginning to worry that he would become violent. None of my soothing seemed to help.”
I shake my head. “That’s only to be expected, Tyra. Werewolves can’t be soothed this close to the full moon. Only challenged.”
I glance around the waiting room, nodding to the regulars I recognize and narrowing my eyes at the corner where I suspect Gogarty, the invisible leprechaun, still sits.
“I’ll let you get back to helping everyone,” I finally say, turning back to Tyra. We trade nods, and I open the door next to the front desk, stepping through into the office proper.
A low murmur fills the office proper. Desks are scattered throughout the open space—not symmetrically, of course, because a gnome and a centaur do not need the same layout—and a couple are occupied by employees and their clients, as they discuss options for their next job placements.
“Morning, Kate,” hums my secretary. The faerie zips through the air from the refreshment area and lands on my shoulder. Kayley may be small, but I decided years ago that I couldn’t run this agency without her. “Nice job handling the werewolf. Kind of ridiculous, though, how often we get them.”
I nod and rub my forehead. “And almost always the day after the full moon.” I groan and shake my head. “Call me Hector today, would you? I don’t much feel like Kate.”
“Will do, boss.” A light tapping fills my right ear as I open the door to my office. “You up for covering today’s agenda yet, or do you need a minute?”
I smile. Kayley knows me so well. “Give me five, will you?”
“Got it. Be back in a few, Hector.”
I feel the press of a tiny hand against my neck. Then Kayley’s small form zips out the door, which swings shut behind her with a soft click.
I settle into my chair with a sigh and slide open the top desk drawer. Staring at the drawer’s contents, I ponder for a moment which headache remedy would be best, before fishing out a small vial of pain potion. I’m pretty sure I used ibuprofen last time, and I learned a long time ago that I do best when I alternate magical and science-based remedies.
Change and transition—my constants.
I spend the next few minutes just sitting with my eyes closed. By the time Kayley’s tiny knock sounds on the office door, the pain in my temples is gone.
Kayley zips in, making sure to close the door lightly again, and settles gently in the middle of my yew desk. In her hands is a tiny tablet, a marvel of science and magic that is as powerful as any tablet I might use.
“What have we got today?”
She offers me a calm smile. “We had seven successful placements yesterday, and one termination.” I nod. That sounds about right. “We also got a phone call yesterday from one of our clients, who had a major complaint about the company he was placed with.”
I frown. “Which client?”
Kayley taps on her screen a couple of times. “Talman Sevetti. He’s the man who was cursed to change into a slime monster every night.”
“Sewage monster,” I correct, recognizing the name.
Kayley glances up at me, then frowns at her tablet. Her face turns bright red. “Oh, right. Sorry. Must have misread that.”
I wave a dismissive hand. “Honest mistake. What was his complaint?”
“That they’ve placed him in sewage disposal after he expressly requested not to work sewage. I believe his exact words were, ‘I spend all night in sewage. Why would I want to spend my days there too?’”
I chuckle for a second before the severity of the complaint makes me frown. “What company did we last place him with?”
Another couple of taps on the tablet. “Let’s see. Looks like Tiberian Electric.”
My mouth grows tight as I consider what I know of Tiberian Electric. Then I scowl. “What are they doing with a sewage disposal position?”
Kayley taps the tablet a few times before shaking her head and turning her face up to me. “I don’t see anything related to sewage in the information I have. Want me to have someone look into it?”
“Yes.” Considering a moment longer, I add, “And have everyone reach out to any other clients we’ve placed with Tiberian Electric. If we’ve had one complaint like that with the company, I want to make sure there aren’t any others.”
Kayley’s head bobs as she makes her notes. “Got it, boss.”
“Anything else?” I ask once she seems to have finished with her notes.
The faerie lifts her face to meet my gaze. “Only one.”
I blink. Kayley’s voice has become somber, something that happens very rarely. Clenching one hand into a fist, I prepare for bad news.
“We have a client who needs your personal touch, Hector.”
I blink again, and my whole body relaxes. “What do you mean?”
Kayley doesn’t break her gaze, not even to glance back down at the tablet for more information. “I mean, we have a client who has been placed twenty times without more than a couple weeks of success at each location, and I think it’s time you finally had a hand in the matter.”
I shake my head and lean back in my chair. I can feel the headache coming back, but I dig my fingers into the yew wood of my desk to keep from touching my face. “Twenty times? Why wasn’t I informed of this sooner?”
Kayley finally glances away, muttering too softly for me to hear.
I sigh. “Kayley?”
Her posture sags, her wings drooping to touch the surface of the desk. “Rosemary and Hadwyn thought they could take care of it.”
I reach out a finger and nudge her chin up. Once I catch her eye, I offer her a small smile. “What matters is that we’re taking care of it now.”
Kayley takes a deep breath, straightens her spine, and nods. “Right.” Lifting her tablet, she taps a few more times and then turns to the monitor that sits on my desk.
Lifting my gaze, I find a list of assignments spilling across the screen of my monitor. I raise an eyebrow as I read through them. Twenty assignments might be a lot, but the variety of them is even more startling. They range from florist to welding technician, bulldozer driver to waterways engineer, and seemingly everything in between.
I shake my head. “What’s his specialty?”
Another tap, and a resume appears on my monitor. “Anything natural, really. Flowers, animals, the elements, you name it. The limit of his skills hasn’t been his problem in finding or keeping a job.”
I scan through the resume, my brow tightening the further I get. “Veterinary license, floral design certificates, heavy equipment operator license, various technician licenses . . . ?” I shake my head. “I’ve never seen someone with so varied a background.”
“That’s one of the reasons Rosemary and Hadwyn thought they could place him themselves.”
I frown down at Kayley. “What exactly is the client’s condition?”
Here, Kayley falters. “Well, you see . . . we don’t know.”
I blink. “What do you mean, we don’t know?”
The faerie shrugs, her wings fluttering in agitation. “The client doesn’t actually think he’s been cursed, enchanted, or anything of the like. He’d been having trouble holding down a job for about a year before someone recommended he come to us.”
I cross my arms. “So why did we accept him as a client if he doesn’t meet the agency requirements?”
Kayley’s wings flutter harder. “I . . . wouldn’t say he doesn’t meet the requirements, exactly.” I stare at her, unimpressed, and she sighs. “It’s hard to explain, Hector. Tyra was going to turn him away, but Rosemary overheard some of what he’d been through and insisted on taking him on. And then after the tenth assignment fell through and Rosemary was reaching her breaking point, Hadwyn stepped in.”
I settle back in my chair and stare, unseeing, at my monitor. Most of the time, my employees are good about sticking to agency policy and only working with those who suffer from curses, enchantments, and the like. Troubles due simply to race or some inborn personality trait are beyond the agency’s purview. Yet for both Rosemary and Hadwyn to insist that this client needs the agency’s help, when both have been with the agency for over a decade and their instincts rarely steer anyone wrong. . .
“What’s the client’s name?” I ask.
Kayley’s smile is blinding despite her small size. “Balasi Mercantus. He’s a human with no magic, as far as we can tell. He just . . . has really bad luck sometimes.”
I sigh, shaking my head. “Very well. Have him come in to speak with me, and I’ll see what I can do.”
Kayley gets Mr. Mercantus set up for a three o’clock appointment, and I spend the afternoon leading up to it trying to review his file.
Trying, because the next few hours end up being filled with one fire after another.
Five phone calls to clients we’ve placed with Tiberian Electric reveal not only an uncomfortable number of position changes but an alarming amount of positions that don’t fit the company’s profile. Kayley and I end up spending two hours in phone conversations with the C-level management of Tiberian Electric before I finally order Kayley to start working on the paperwork to cancel our contract with them. While she attends to that, I reach out to several of my contacts to report my suspicions of Tiberian Electric’s fraudulent business activities.
No one treats my clients with such disrespect and gets away with it.
Almost as soon as I’m off the phone with my federal contacts, shouting breaks out in the office proper. Still furious with the Tiberian Electric mess, I shove my chair away from my yew desk and stomp to the door.
When I see the rivers of color that the open portion of the agency has begun to turn into, I almost turn around and barricade myself in my office. Pain throbs in my temples and behind my eyes; I don’t feel up to dealing with a Daliesque curse right now.
As it turns out, the melting effect is directly connected to the woman’s emotions and stops once we’ve gotten her calmed down. I make a comment to her new caseworker not to even consider a retail position for her and head back to my office.
I’ve been sitting in my chair for maybe fifteen minutes, wondering if it’s been long enough since I took the pain potion for me to pop a couple of ibuprofen, when the door to my office creaks open. I sigh and open my eyes, curious what Kayley could have to report now.
Except Kayley’s nowhere to be seen. In fact, no one seems to have come through the office door.
I narrow my eyes, remembering my impression that someone invisible had been in the waiting room this morning. “Gogarty,” I growl, “if that’s you, I swear—”
“I swear . . .”
I jerk upright in my chair. The responding voice sounds just like mine but fainter, the phrase seeming to fade throughout the room even as it repeats. I might have mistaken it for an actual echo if I hadn’t made sure my office was echo-proof years ago. I lock my jaw against the urge to curse and rub my forehead.
Like we don’t have enough problems right now.
“Let me guess,” I mutter. “Zeus and Hera are in town.”
“In town . . .” the echo repeats mournfully.
I nod and climb to my feet. “Very well. Let’s get you to someone who can help.”
I lead the most recent victim of Hera’s echo curse out of my office. Thankfully, it’s one we’ve dealt with before—Zeus and Hera tend to roam between major cities fairly regularly, and Hera has become a bit predictable with her choice of punishments for her husband’s conquests. Though Hera has added invisibility to this particular one since she cast it on the original Echo, she still hasn’t bothered to make the curse affect forms of communication other than speech.
It’s quarter to three when I finally settle in my office again. My head is pounding so hard, I’m tempted to cancel any other plans I have for the day and just go home.
No one would blame me, right? It’s the day after the full moon—my worst day of the month. Surely--
I open my eyes, and they settle on the folder lying in the middle of my desk. An orange note is plastered to the front, directly in the center, with two words scrawled in a familiar handwriting.
For a split second, the image of an intersection forms in my mind. Not the paved kind we’re used to today, with red, green, and yellow lights and more signs than one knows what to do with, but a dirt trail with multiple paths and an old rickety wooden signpost declaring the destination of each path in worn, too-old lettering.
Mist wreathes one of the paths, pulling back here and there to reveal prickly thorns and winding vines. When I glance at the destination sign for the hidden path, I find moss and leaves overgrowing it.
I curse as the image fades from my mind and my eyes once again focus on the folder sitting in the middle of my desk. Something, or someone, is interfering with my mind, trying to steal paths from me that I might normally travel. If I were anyone else, I probably wouldn’t have noticed.
But you can’t obscure the crossroads from the one in charge of them.
Pulling open the top drawer of my desk, I grab the bottle of ibuprofen from within and pop a couple of the pills into my mouth, swallowing them dry. Putting the bottle away, I tap my throat with one hand, encouraging my body to process the medicine with a touch of magic, and flip open the folder with the other.
By the time the expected knock sounds on my door, I’ve read ten of the reasons for Mr. Mercantus being released from his assignments, and my fury has only grown.
“Come in,” I growl.
The door creaks open, and a wide-eyed, timid-looking man peers around it. The expression is nothing like what I might expect from a man with the experience listed in Mr. Mercantus’s resume. I grind my teeth as the fire within me flares.
“Miss—er, Director Triod?” The man glances around the office, and I wonder if he’s looking for what might go wrong. “I, uh, was told you wished to meet with me.”
I force my jaw to relax, nod, and motion him to the chair across the yew desk from me. This man—this Balasi Mercantus—is not the one who has angered me, and I know better than to risk scaring him off when he’s most likely the intended victim of the magic threatening my paths.
“Yes, Mr. Mercantus. Please, sit down.” He scurries in, shutting the door behind him, and settles into the chair. “And please, call me Hector. My title is a bit too formal for the discussion we’re about to have.”
If anything, the man’s eyes widen further. “I-it is?” When I only nod, he swallows and sits up a bit straighter. “Then, please, call me Balasi.”
Despite the fire raging within me, I find a sincere smile pulling at my lips. “Very good.” Glancing down at my desk in hopes of centering myself a bit more, I flip the folder back to the first page. “Do you understand what we do here, Balasi?”
The man hesitates long enough that I return my gaze to him. I’m not sure what he sees in my eyes, but it’s apparently enough to get him to talk.
“You help people who have been cursed or enchanted find jobs.”
I nod. “And as I understand it, you came to us even though you were certain you hadn’t been cursed.” When he nods in return, I add, “Why?”
Balasi blinks. “Well, I, uh . . .” He scratches his head. “A good friend of mine, Lin Garrin, recommended I come. The nursery he works for has had a couple of positions filled by your agency, and he thought you might be able to help me.” Balasi’s cheeks redden. “Lin was rather insistent, actually.”
“And do you understand why first Rosemary and then Hadwyn insisted on taking your case?”
Balasi shakes his head. “No, sir. I mean, Hector.” His flush deepens. “I only know that they overrode the lady at the front desk.”
I smile. “And for good reason, though I doubt they’d be able to explain why.”
Balasi’s head snaps back. “What do you mean?”
I lift a hand and flick my fingers at the wall behind the man. The lights click off, leaving only the light glowing through the closed blinds of the window behind me. “I understand you don’t have magic yourself, is that right?”
“Y-yes, that’s correct.”
I close my eyes. “And have you ever been able to see magic?”
The answer is slower in coming, but Balasi does answer before I feel the need to open my eyes again. “Only when the magic user made it visible.”
I nod. “Then I’ll just have to make the magic surrounding you visible.”
I make another gesture, this time lifting both hands. A howl starts up behind me, distant, like the cry of a hound on the hunt. Something small and long skitters across my feet, and a faint angry chitter joins the howl.
A gasp from across the desk completes the symphony, and I open my eyes.
Balasi is gaping at the dancing red that glitters in loose spirals around his body and trails toward me and back through the door of my office. I have no doubt that if I were to open the office door, I would find the trail of red glitter encircling several of my employees, including Kayley, Rosemary, and Hadwyn.
“What . . . what is this?”
I offer Balasi a sympathetic smile. “This is the visual representation of the curse that affects you.”
“Curse?” Balasi reaches toward the light with one hand, but he can’t physically touch it. “You mean, it wasn’t all just bad luck?”
I consider the words and what I’ve read of the circumstances of his release from each of his assignments. My lips spasm into a grimace.
“Actually, if I’m interpreting everything correctly, bad luck is exactly what it is.”
I blink and raise my eyebrows. Balasi is leaning forward in his chair, no longer cringing and wide-eyed. For the first time since he arrived, his eyes are alight with the curiosity and intelligence that I’m certain led to the experience listed on his resume.
“Have you ever met anyone claiming to be a god?”
Balasi’s brow wrinkles. After a moment, he shakes his head. “Not that I’m aware of. I know the old pantheons live among us, but don’t they generally hide themselves as mortals for day-to-day life? I can’t imagine I’d know if I met one, either way.”
My lips twitch, and I nod. “Too true. Even Zeus and Hera tend to hide themselves until Hera catches Zeus at cheating again.” I roll my eyes, thinking briefly of the wave of clients the agency is sure to get in the wake of Zeus and Hera’s latest visit.
“This curse isn’t from one of them, though, is it?” Balasi is frowning when I focus on him next. “Don’t the two them always make themselves known when they ‘punish’ mortals?”
I nod. “You are correct. They do, and your curse is not from them. The truth is, I recognized the flavor of your curse the moment I realized it was affecting my own magic.”
Balasi’s eyes widen, but this time, the expression isn’t driven by fear. “Does that mean you know how to work around the curse now?”
I purse my lips and consider the question. After a long moment of silence, I shake my head.
“Unfortunately, a curse of bad luck cannot be circumvented. Change is its nature; adaptation, its strength. As long as you’re cursed, you’ll continue to fall victim to circumstances you cannot control.”
Balasi’s shoulders slump, and his gaze drops to the floor. “Then your agency can’t help me.”
I harrumph. “I did not say that.”
He blinks up at me warily. “But if you can’t circumvent the curse . . .”
I bare my teeth. “I don’t plan to circumvent it. I plan to unravel it.”
He frowns, his head tilting to one side. “Isn’t that against your agency’s policy?”
I chuckle dryly. “You have been a client of ours for some time, haven’t you?”
Balasi flushes. “Nearly seven months.”
I nod. “Normally, you’d be right. It is agency policy to not interfere with curses, only to work around them. But there are rare circumstances, like yours, in which a curse or enchantment simply cannot be integrated into society. In those cases, it is my prerogative to possibly interfere.”
“You’d do that?” Balasi asks. “For me?”
I smirk and lean back in my chair. “Not just for you, though I don’t appreciate the strictness of such a curse in general. No, I would do it for both you and my agency.” I wave one hand to encompass the sprawling nature of the curse’s glittering red light. “As you can see, the curse is affecting me and my employees as well. That, I simply cannot accept.”
The smile Balasi hands me then is as blinding as the one Kayley offered me earlier.
“And they call me a thief.”
I firmly and steadily close the office door behind Balasi Mercantus. He’s only just finished spilling his profuse thanks for me unraveling the curse of bad luck. A curse I’m certain has been trailing him for most of his life, if its depth within his spirit was any indication.
“Well? Did you hear me?”
I glance over my shoulder, one eyebrow raised. Leaning against my desk is a young man in a loose button-down shirt, cargo shorts, and sandals, his long hair held back from his face by a wide-brimmed hat. The left breast pocket of his shirt is embroidered with a pair of wings.
My lips twitch upward. “Oh, I heard you. I simply saw no reason to reply.”
The young man scowls, but he doesn’t hold the expression long. He shrugs and surges to his feet.
“So the great Hecate has decided to interfere after all these years.”
It’s my turn to scowl, and I’m not as inclined to drop the expression. “It’s Hector right now. Better yet,” I add, feeling uncharitable, “Director Triod. You have no right to refer to me so familiarly right now.”
The young man flashes a mischievous smile. “Oh, really? Hector? And I thought I was the hermaphroditic one here.”
I roll my eyes and walk past him, dropping into my desk chair. “Seriously, Hermes, what do you want?”
Hermes pouts and crosses his arms. “You’re no fun, you know that?” When I only roll my eyes again, he huffs. “You stole my mortal.”
“You mean your plaything?” He scowls, and I shake my head. “You’re worse than Hera, you know? At least her victims can still live some kind of life under her curses.”
Hermes’s arms tighten across his chest. “He was doing just well for himself beneath my curse. You saw all the certificates and licenses he had.”
“Yes, successes he managed despite the suffering you put him through.” I sigh and shake my head. “Hermes, you had to know I’d interfere the moment the curse began affecting me. I don’t take kindly to my choices being threatened.”
Hermes huffs, glances away, and then nods. “Fine. I won’t complain. Chaos knows what you would do to me if I pushed the matter, anyway.” I snort, and he flashes me a grin. “Guess I should get going, then, before Balasi gets too far.”
I frown. “I thought you were going to give up on him.”
Hermes chuckles. “Give up on him? When he could do so much with a boost of good luck?” He flashes a feral grin. “I’ve only just started with Balasi Mercantus.”
With a tip of his hat, he spins in place and disappears in a puff of smoke that smells like incense. I sigh and shake my head, but I can’t help the smile that touches my lips.
Well, at least Balasi Mercantus should be easy to place now.
I spend the next two hours focusing on that and trying to forget the chaos that Hermes’s curse wreaked on the rest of my day.
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Q&A With S. P. Oldham
Q1) Tell us about your book
Born and brought up in Pentyrch, a village at the foot of the Garth Mountain in South Wales, Mari Ann Cabbage is a name I have always been familiar with. As a child she filled me equally with fear, awe and wonder. She played a mysterious and compelling part in the folklore of the region. Many people believed she was a witch, while others called her a thief of sheep, among other things. Whatever was true, it was generally agreed that she came to a sticky end. I wrote a short story loosely based upon her called Mari on the Mountain, though I make no claim to any of it being the truth. It is simply a story of dark fantasy, based upon an intriguing character from my childhood.
Perhaps one day someone will dig beneath the stone on the Garth Mountain that may or may not be her headstone and find out if there are human remains under it. Perhaps science will one day allow us to read whatever is engraved upon that stone. It could be nothing more than myth and legend, but I like to think that she was real, though I dread to think how she might have met her death.
Devil’s Drop is another story based upon mythology I grew up with. At the end of the my street there was a field where we kids used to play daily. There was a gate to clamber over, a horse’s shelter to play in and a patch of trees and shrubs we called ‘the woods.’ In these woods were two small caves, side by side, which led to a maze of underground tunnels. We never went in these caves because we believed, as legend had it, that the Devil lived in them. We did, however, make a rope swing which attached to a tree limb that stretched over the top of them, daring each other to swing over the Devil’s head. This, of course, was all nonsense. Sadly, what was true was that several potholers and cavers, on separate occasions, lost their lives in those caves, due to flooding I believe.
The field has gone now and as far as I know the caves have too. A housing estate stands there now. Perhaps that is just as well.
The Face of the Gale is a story in which I made elemental conditions, i.e., the weather, an actual physical being, a little like Jack Frost except this being is a representation of the wind. Both Devil’s Drop and The Face of the Gale are stories in Wakeful Children: A Collection of Horror and Supernatural Tales.
Another mythology that fascinates me is that of witches, which are universal, though they tend to be different wherever you are in the world. I think these are characters full of wicked potential. They are often portrayed as child-friendly ‘baddies’ in modern culture, but I think they can be far more evil than that. They can become true horror characters very easily.
That said, in Hag’s Breath: A Collection of Witchcraft and Wickedness I have tried to portray witches of all different kinds, including the traditional. I had great fun writing these stories. I can identify with witches in so far as they have a reverence for nature and the ability to work in harmony with it. That resonates with me.
Q2) Why did you focus on myths/legends from that particular region?
Simply put, because it is where I come from! I am familiar with these characters and places, I know what those woods, those caves, looked like. I walked up and played on the Garth Mountain many times in my childhood and teen years. Writing about things you know is not only easier it’s therapeutic, in an odd kind of way. It makes me keen to share with the reader the things I saw, heard, felt, even smelled in those places. I try to convey the darkness, the eeriness, the mystery of the places and people in the same way that they affected me as a child, in the hope it might affect the reader too.
Q3) Who is your favorite mythical figure?
This is a difficult question to answer. I am not sure I have a favourite. I have an affection, if that is the right word, for witches, as I explained above. Spring-Heeled Jack is a genuinely frightening myth, I think. The story of his origin is interesting, too. I have a special place in my heart for Mari Ann Cabbage of course. I love dragons and wizards. As I say, I am not sure I have a favourite.
Q4) If you could choose to hang out with one mythical God, who would it be and why?
It would have to be Offler the Crocodile God created by the wonderful, inimitable Sir Terry Pratchett. Offler is just one of the many gods of Discworld, but he was the first I came across when I first discovered Discworld many years ago. There is a lot more to Offler than the fact that he forbids his adherents from eating broccoli. (I love broccoli but the way. This just made me laugh.)
Q5) Do you plan on writing similar books in the future?
Yes. Mythology, folklore and legend fascinate me. They are a wonderful inspiration for books, stories and poetry, as well as making interesting reading in themselves. I am currently writing a short story based on a mythology that spread the length and breadth of the UK, possibly into Europe; that of wishing trees. I will keep the details under my hat, for now.
This is an extract from my work in progress, a dark fantasy with adult themes called Wicked Little Blade. It is raw and unedited, so while the content and storyline will remain unchanged when it is finally finished, the grammar and presentation probably won’t!
I hope you enjoy it.
S P Oldham
Copyright © S P Oldham
The marble floors of the palace were deliciously cool beneath Shaderassa’s bare feet. In the rare moments when she was able to relax a little, out of the watchful eye of her mother, other parts of her body could delight in the perpetually cool marble of the walls too. She would lean against them, relishing the feel of the smooth, hard stone against her bare arms and shoulders, the back of her legs. Here and there, if she timed it right, it was possible to catch a breeze winding its way down the spotless maze of corridors. It would ruffle the gauzy veils of curtains hanging across the wide doorways like draped cobwebs; the only barriers, such as they were, into the Great Lady’s Inner Sanctum.
Thicker veils were drawn between the pillars at night, enclosing the court in a soft, yielding embrace. The Great Lady had a scorn for doors and gates. At every turn there was a burly guard, with a back as broad and immovable as any door. A legion of assassins was at her disposal; formidable men and women who would kill without a moment’s hesitation. What she called her personal army – a cohort of one hundred seasoned fighters – were permanently lodged in the grounds outside the palace entrance, ready to take arms and fight in her name at any given moment.
Shaderassa’s place in the sanctum was due only to the fact that her mother, a Mirror-mind, was held in high esteem. Over the years she had accurately predicted events both large and small, providing the Great Lady with many an advantage over her adversaries.
Beyond the hearing of the Great Lady there had been many crude jokes and jibes eleven years ago, when her mother had found herself unexpectedly with child. That had been Shaderassa’s start in life, from the very first the object of derision and scorn. No one dared speak a word in the Great Lady’s presence, nor in earshot of any of her close consorts. But outside, in the sweat and sawdust taverns, in the filthy alleyways, the huddled, grimy huts and dusty streets, the people had plenty to say. A seer who could not predict her own pregnancy was too rich a source for ribaldry to let it pass.
“She should have seen that coming!” Someone would shout, someone else replying with the formulated answer, “She couldn’t see it coming, it was buried too deep inside her!”
Then they would fall about laughing, impressed with their own smutty wit, never seeming to tire of it.
Her mother rose above it, not deigning even to look upon the common people. They were of no consequence. For a time though, she teetered on a knife edge in the Inner Sanctum.
The Great Lady’s anger was a cold, hard thing. Though she barely spoke on the subject, it was apparent to all who knew her that she was at war within herself; a Mirror Mind was too great an asset to cast aside, yet such a public failure in one so high could not go unpunished. That the end result was a pregnancy, of all things, was embarrassing as well as disappointing. The court could not be allowed to become a thing of ridicule.
As a result, Shaderassa’s mother was subtly yet blatantly disgraced; made to sit in the lowliest place at table, rarely invited into close conversation, ignored during councils and never asked for her opinion. There was even a rumour of banishment. It was only when she went to the Great Lady after an especially vivid dream, warning her of a conspiracy in the Inner Sanctum - a plot to take her life, no less - that she was finally forgiven and welcomed back into the Great Lady’s good graces.
It was unfortunate, a mere coincidence, that one of the two guards implicated in the plot happened to be the man who had fathered Shaderassa.
The two co-conspirators were dragged to the square, protesting their innocence every scrape and slide of the way. Even as the nooses were laid around their necks and the hoods placed over their heads, they protested. The excited masses stood watching, drooling for their entertainment, but a chill fell over them all at the words one of them uttered as the trapdoor opened beneath his feet.
“Curse you Ellera, you faithless seer! May your bastard infant be the death of you!” The last word was choked off, never fully uttered as the gallows did its grisly work, but everyone heard well enough.
Shaderassa loitered now in the shadows, behind her mother. The Inner Sanctum was gathered in full. The atmosphere, usually languid and decadent, was tense. The Great Lady sat on an ornate, cushioned chair, everyone else standing parallel to the walls, forming a wide and graceful U-shape before her, their eyes cast down in deference.
Immediately in front of the Great Lady a large bathing pool beckoned darkly. Usually a pair of slender, naked bath-maidens swam in it, intoxicating scents wafting at every ripple. Today, the pool was empty.
From her hiding place, Shaderassa looked more closely at the water. It appeared black and oily, no steam rising in lazy curls, making her wish she could shed her garments and slide into it unnoticed. No heady scents to make the eyes close and the imagination wander.
The Great Lady never raised her voice. A clever ploy, her mother had once explained, to make people listen more attentively. Shaderassa rarely heard her mother raise her own voice. She wondered if she had learned that from the Great Lady, or if it was the other way round.
The Great Lady spoke now, her voice somehow dark, seductive. No one dared look up at her words, except Shaderassa, who took care to remain out of sight.
“It grieves me to stand here before you today,” she began, “For I desire nothing more than to lounge in my pool, my maidens attending to me whilst my gracious court entertains and informs me. I wish for nothing more than to be attired in my cool, clean robes, safe in the knowledge that I am secure here in the heart of my kingdom, where the people love and revere me.”
Shaderassa bit her tongue. If she let free the snort of derision at that last remark, she would likely have it cut off. Could it be that the Great Lady did not know how she was resented among the common people?
“Today, I have wearier work to do.”
She fell silent again, scanning the court, seeking someone out. Heart pounding with sudden, inexplicable dread, Shaderassa sank even deeper into the shadows, leaning into a column of marble as if she hoped to become part of it.
The Great Lady’s gaze travelled the u-shape of assembled attendants, flicked over Shaderassa’s mother, remained there. Her mother gave no sign of distress or discovery, remaining rigid where she stood, eyes cast obediently down.
“You again, Ellera. It is ever you.” The Great Lady sighed, the sound echoing in the space, expanding to become the cold breath of a thousand dead souls, making the flesh rise.
She turned her back, the move elegant, assured. For a horrible moment, Shaderassa thought her mother might be rooted to the spot, she took so long to obey the command. Time stood still as the girl held her breath, willing her mother to do as she was bid before the wrath of the Great Lady fell upon her. Then, to her shocked surprise, her mother did indeed move; she turned around, picking Shaderassa out easily among the shadows, catching her eye and holding her there.
“I’m sorry,” she breathed.
The words were soundless, yet they resounded in Shaderassa’s ears as if they had been bellowed. No one else seemed even to have heard. Her mother turned, stepping gracefully after the Great Lady.
Shaderassa watched with growing unease. The two were not exiting the room to go to some private parley, nor was the Great Lady returning to her grand seat. They were making for the dark pool, its slick waters shining like polished leather. When they reached the steps leading down to it, the Great Lady called a halt to their progress.
“The court may look upon me,” she granted. There was a low murmur as the court raised their aching necks to do as they were bid, their faces masks of indifference, afraid to show any emotion lest it be the wrong one.
Shaderassa did not care. She stared through the gap her mother had left, wishing her back was not turned that she might see her face. She had never in all her young life heard her mother apologise. She could not imagine why she had done so now. She realised it was not merely the words she had spoken, but the finality in her mother’s voice. She might just as well have said ‘goodbye.’
With a start, Shaderassa realised the Great Lady was speaking again. It took effort to calm her racing mind and concentrate on what she was saying.
“Here before me stands Ellera. My seer, my prophetess, my lady of wisdom. My Mirror-Mind. That is how I have always looked upon her.” Leaving Shaderassa’s mother at the edge of the pool, the Great Lady began another slow circuit around those assembled there.
“Was I not marvellous, then? Was I not both merciful and gracious when I forgave Ellera her transgression all those years ago? Did I not welcome her back at this court with open arms? Alas, perhaps my tenderness has been my weakness. As was hers, when she opened her arms and legs to a man, allowing herself to become with child.” She stopped suddenly, spinning on the spot to face Ellera from the other side of the pool.
“Does she expect me to be so forgiving a second time?”
There was a gasp from those gathered there, the Great Lady’s demeanour implying that she expected such a response from her audience. She had lifted a slender arm, pointed a thin finger at Ellera.
Shaderassa saw her mother’s shoulders tense at the accusation. Frustrated, she ran between the marble pillars, her bare feet practised and silent as she flew, ghost-like, around the outer perimeter of the court. She needed to see her mother’s face. She was confused. What did the Great Lady mean? Was her mother with child?
Shaderassa knew how babies were made. At night, when the Great Lady had retired to her rooms, there was evidence enough around the court, if you were stealthy enough to spy without being seen. She had been made to lurk in the shadows all her life; she had become proficient at invisibility.
She came to a halt directly behind the Great Lady and the row of courtiers at her back. She pressed deep into the gloomier parts where the light could not reach; at least, not until the torches were lit. She took a sideways step, ducking to see through the gaps. It was no good; she could see nothing clearly.
Atop the marble pillars, high up, there ran a ledge like a shelf, all the way around the court. It had always made Shaderassa think that the columns were holding hands, as if even they needed support to remain standing.
The veils between the columns had not yet been drawn. They hung in neat braids down the length of each pillar, ready for a servant to unfold them. As a small child, Shaderassa had been scolded many times for playing with them as she passed them by. She would have been punished if the Great Lady had found out. Her own mother would have been furious had she known how Shaderassa had learned to climb them, scaling them as easily a monkey up a vine; a skill which had got her out of a tight spot more than once.
It was a risk to do it now, when the court was fully, formally gathered. Shaderassa deliberated, chewing her lip. No one there would dare look away from the spectacle unfolding before them. However it ended, the Great Lady would command them to lower their eyes again, once it was all over. She desperately needed to see her mother’s face; to try to read in it any message she would not be permitted to speak.
It was a risk worth taking. Shaderassa ducked behind the nearest pillar. She grasped the veil hanging there and with surprising agility, moved hand over hand, her feet braced against the marble, until she had reached the top. Not daring to lie along the length of the ledge; that was too bold even for her, she settled for resting her right foot upon it, her left hooked into the soft folds of the veil. She held another bunch of it knotted into her hands. This way, she was still partially hidden by the pillar.
This was better. Now, she could see clearly down into the court. No one had looked up or had stirred at her movement. It was always a curious thing, to be able to see the tops of their heads. Her mother’s hair was dark and glossy, not dissimilar to the pool. She was frowning, her usually calm features distorted. With a jolt of shock, Shaderassa realised her mother was afraid.
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A Long Time Ago
You can’t escape your fate.
I have heard the words so many times in the last few centuries, words to live by. But not to die by.
I surveyed the battlefield, searching for any sign of Fenrir. Warriors from both sides lay dead around me. They fought bravely, of course they did, you don’t enter Valhalla without being brave, loyal and an undisputed bad ass. They will all be honored during tonight’s feast in the Great Hall.
Their deaths were not in vain, I have defeated Fenrir in battle, proving to him and everyone else, that my fate at Ragnarök, that I would fall at his hands, is wrong.
“Mighty Odin,” a voice called. I turned to find one of my warriors rushing toward me.
“What word is there of Fenrir?” I asked.
“Sire, he appears to have fled the battlefield. When the tide turned, he transformed and left through a portal.”
“Coward,” I muttered. He made me ashamed to call him my grandson. For all his posturing, his sense of self-importance, he was nothing more than a cowardly snake.
“If he returns, have him executed on sight,” I said. He wasn’t even worthy of smiting. Let the fool run.
I returned home, weary from the battle. I wanted nothing more than to wash the bloodstains from my skin and drink until I slipped into slumber.
While my servants prepared the feast, I changed out of my armor, leaving it on the floor for someone to collect.
As I was leaving the bath, I noticed them. Paw prints on the floor, leading from my bloody armor to the window and out onto the balcony.
“Come out, Fenrir. Or do you fear your king?” I said.
Fenrir stepped into the room, his armor damaged, his face twisted in anger. “I do not fear you. How could I fear a man who would start a war in an attempt to outrun his fate?”
“You say that word like you have the first clue what it means. Ragnarök has passed and the prophecy did not come to pass.”
Fenrir started to laugh, the sound verging on hysterical. “That was not Ragnarök. That was a war you started. You sacrificed all of those men because you think you are better than the rest of us. The real battle is yet to come and you will die at my hands.”
I took a step toward him. “The prophecy says that you will die too.”
“Yes, and I have accepted that. No matter what you do, Odin, you cannot escape this. Every God will fall, as will Midgard. It is written. From the ashes of the old world, a new one will be born.”
I was sick of listening to him talk. “Guards!” I bellowed.
“‘Til we meet again, Grandfather,” he said, before leaping from the balcony.
The guards rushed into the room. “He went over the balcony. Find him! I want Fenrir eliminated. And send me Loki.”
The guards left the room and I dressed in my celebration robes. Loki entered the chamber a few minutes later.
“Fenrir was here. I gave you specific instructions to ensure that he was killed in battle, no matter what.”
Loki bowed his head. “He escaped me. He shares my ability to shapeshift, there was nothing I could do.”
“You are his father! And I am yours. When I give you an order, you will follow it.”
“I will set out to find him now. I won’t rest until he is dead.”
“Take Tyr and Angraboda with you. He will most likely head for Midgard, he seems to like it there. Bring me his head, Loki.”
Loki left to fetch the others. If anyone knew Fenrir’s tricks, it was Loki. I feared that he would side with is son, but after everything Fenrir had done, he saw him for what he really was. An angry fanatic.
I walked out to the balcony, staring out at Valhalla. My kingdom. I wasn’t just tasked with keeping Valhalla safe, but the other realms too. I had visited the human world many times, they did not need our war spilling over onto their world. They were weak creatures, fragile. Beautiful women though. Some to rival the Gods themselves.
“Run, Fenrir. Run as fast as you can. I swear if I cannot catch you, I will do whatever it takes to save my home. Whatever it takes.”
A Deader Shade of Pale by Deborah Wilde
You might be wondering: how did I end up knee-deep in a small lake on a Friday night while wearing a sexy black sundress?
It all started while I was on my third date in five days with Ben Myers, a blond and bespectacled lexicographer who my best friend, Judith, had sworn would be perfect for me.
And so far he was: we had similar political views, both enjoyed a good mystery and a good bottle of wine, and would never say no to a delicious meal. We’d compared the trials and tribulations of aging bodies: his thinning hair and my back pain, and had laughingly made bets on how long before either of us ended up in a mouthguard thanks to incessant teeth grinding. Ben even praised my daughter Sadie’s creativeness in her cosplaying, which boded well for future dates. But there was one thing that might be a deal breaker—for him.
I brushed imaginary crumbs off the plaid picnic blanket. “We need to talk.”
The salsa concert here at this lakeside park had wrapped up with enthusiastic applause, and the few remaining stragglers were now making their way home.
“Oh no.” Ben made a face, causing his glasses to slide down his nose. “I take it back. I wasn’t up arguing all night last Friday with a theoretical linguist about generative lexicon theory.” He broke into an exaggerated version of the white man’s overbite, doing some disco move with his upper body. “I was burning up the dance floor.”
I laughed and pushed his hands into his lap. “Never bust that out again. Go back to your word nerd arguments and losing track of time. Much sexier.”
Ben blushed and smoothed out his bow tie. “You think?”
He jutted his chin up, with a mock-imperial expression. “Then I’ll have you know that I didn’t lose track. My watch had stopped working.”
“Are you sure you checked it?” I said, playing along despite my anxious need to get this talk over with.
“I consulted it at my favorite time. 11:59:59AM.” His mischievous grin made my heart ping. “It’s second to noon.”
I barely refrained from groaning. “I disagree. It seems your watch needed a hand.”
Ben clapped his hands in delight. “You say you hate puns but you lie.”
“It’s all your fault. You’ve broken me.”
“Well done, me.” He patted his shoulder. “What did you want to discuss?”
Most people with magic were Ohrists, deriving their power from light, and many tended to dislike the few remaining Banim Shovavim like me, who drew their power from darkness instead. Historically, they’d even hunted us into near extinction.
Jude had assured me that Ben was not one of those people, but I had to check. Plus, I was curious as to his particular ability.
“Well, you see…”
A dying ray of soft gold beamed down upon us, the sunset’s streaks of warm pink and orange fading beneath a velvety indigo.
Ben reached out to tuck a strand of my dark hair behind my ears. “You’re lovely, Miriam.”
Our eyes met, my heart hammering in my chest and champagne bubbles fizzing in my belly. Talk, schmalk. This was finally happening. I gave a tiny nod, closed my lids, and leaned in.
The blanket rustled and the scent of Ben’s cologne drifted closer.
I pursed my lips--
Ben groaned. “Have you ever tasted anything so good?”
Say what? I cracked an eye to find my date shoveling my portion of the mille-feuille that he’d brought into his mouth, custard and flaky pastry oozing through his fingers.
I subtly checked my breath, wondering if he was trying to tell me I smelled of olive tapenade and needed to sweeten up, but no. “Wow,” I said weakly, “you’re really going to town on that.”
He nodded, cramming the last bit in. “Did you know,” he said, through a mouthful, “that the alternate name for mille-feuille, Napoleon, refers not to the emperor, but to the city of Naples, which was famed for its layered desserts?”
Now was not the time to entice my librarian side with interesting facts, damn it.
“I did not.” I trailed my fingers along my décolletage. “However, I can think of some other sweet treats to indulge in.”
Not even a flicker of interest. Ben licked a smear of errant custard off his thumb with a laser focus that had me thinking lucky thumb. “I don’t think I’ve ever tasted anything this good.”
Okay, what the hell? I slammed the lid on an empty container and threw it in the picnic basket. My mouth was a marvel, my kissing technique sublime. Or at least, better than a mille-feuille. Had it been chocolate cake, I might have conceded the point.
Wiping his hands on a napkin, he inhaled deeply. “Smell that night air. Damn, it’s good to be alive.”
It was a lovely June night. Maybe he’d just gotten overcome with emotion? That was good, right? Who wanted one of those stoic types? I could get this date back on track. “So—”
Ben sniffed again. Then he jumped to his feet and ran over to some dude smoking a cigarette while waiting for his dog to find the perfect bush to pee on.
I watched, flabbergasted, as Ben ripped the cigarette from the man’s mouth and ran off, ignoring his angry cries. Right, then. Jude and I were so going to have a word about her definition of “perfect.”
Ben ran across the sand, kicked off his sandals, and hopped into the water, splashing loudly. “Yes! Feel the cold.”
He dragged on his purloined cigarette, flicking glowing ash off the tip.
My heart plummeted into my toes. On our first date, Ben had told me he didn’t smoke because of his asthma. Oh, shit.
I pushed to my feet and plunged into the lake after him. I’d finally mustered up the courage to date again in my forties, putting myself out there, and how was I rewarded? My shins were covered in brown algae, highlighting the patch of hair I’d missed when I shaved, the underwire in my bra was tapping Morse code against my boob, and fish slime oozed between my toes.
All traces of dusk were gone, the bright clear moonlight making it easy to examine Ben’s shadow. It had flipped from looking perfectly normal to being a diseased abomination flecked with crimson and sickly gray streaks.
I gasped, blinking away the moisture pooling in my eyes, my magic burning with the need to destroy that foulness inside him. Ben was possessed by a dybbuk, a wicked spirit made of rage and violence, needing extremes to feel alive. Murder or rape might be their more common nefarious go-to, but apparently a froufrou French dessert and an illicit smoke let this one revel in feeling human again.
Budding romances were not supposed to end in a body count, but this story didn’t have a happily-ever-after. There was no way to save Ben. His consciousness or soul or whatever was gone, and this malignant specter now controlled his body, his memories—and his powers.
A dybbuk could only possess someone who had magic.
I wanted to go home and grieve this stupid, senseless loss, preferably in my pj’s, while eating my feelings with the emergency pint of mocha ice cream stashed in my freezer.
But I couldn’t let dybbuk-Ben harm anyone else.
Ben took a drag and, blowing out a plume of smoke, tilted his head to the starry sky. “Fuck, I missed this.” His features grew pinched and he coughed, his hand pressed to his chest as he sucked down wheezing breaths.
“He had asthma,” I said, dully, kicking the cloudy water as I stomped closer. “A real killjoy. But I guess body-snatchers can’t be choosers.”
His coughing subsiding, he narrowed his eyes behind his thick black frames. “Well, well, well. You figured it out. Who’s a smartypants?”
“What, are you going to give me a scratch ’n’ sniff sticker for my effort?” I stopped a couple feet away from him and fanned second-hand smoke out of my face. “Let’s wrap this up, shall we?” I said, with the same enthusiasm as someone about to get a cavity search from a border guard.
He tossed the butt into the water. “Fine by me.”
The park was empty, but to any non-magic observer, Ben and I would just look like a couple of drunks stumbling around in the water.
Magic tingled under my skin like a faint itch. My animated shadow, whom I’d named Delilah, jumped to her feet, her fists up, independent of any contact with me. Simultaneously, I was both inside my body and my shadow, a bouncy, fluid entity with weight and substance. My vision also split into two: normal Miri vision and the green night vision of my shadow. I barely noticed the nausea this double sight induced anymore.
Ben stepped back sharply, the water slapping against his shins. “You’re Banim Shovavim! One of those filthy children of Lilith who manipulate death and darkness.” His amused smile was tinged with malice. This vitriol was the dybbuk talking, but that didn’t stop the pointed sting behind my ribcage. “I had no idea.”
I threw him a bland smile. “What can I say? I’m a woman of mystery.”
Delilah leapt and kicked out her left leg with a sweeping roundhouse into Ben’s hip, sending him stumbling forward, water splashing into my face.
He regained his balance. “You’re a woman who gets right to the heart of things. I like that.”
Orange-green light burst out from his skin to cocoon him, its swirl of color pulsating slowly. Aura magic was rare but as majestic as a male peacock’s extended plumage, making me the drab peahen in comparison. I bounced on my toes. Male peacocks may have been prettier but it was the peahens with the advantage in the wild, since they could camouflage themselves and avoid predation more easily.
Men always placed such importance on looks.
But rare or not, Ben’s Ohrist magic was now the dybbuk’s to wield at will.
Delilah threw a left hook before he’d even straightened up, but the blow smashed into his aura like I’d punched a wall, with no damage to him.
I screamed and shook out my hand. Any injury to my shadow was felt by me and not her, and my puffy knuckles throbbed.
“I’d say you punch like a girl, but you didn't even land it.” Ben patted his stomach. “Come on, try again.”
Delilah and the condescending asshole circled each other, then he lunged, almost dislocating my shoulder as he flung Delilah into the lake. It broke my psychic link with her, and she vanished, my shadow once more an ordinary reflection on the rippling surface.
Ben sprinted to land, while I followed hot on his heels, spitting out the taste of fetid water.
I stepped onto the sand with a sigh of relief, my movements no longer impeded by the lake.
Ben faced me, his aura as bright as ever, and I steeled myself to end this.
Shadow magic swirled up my body and along my left arm in a black whirlwind, settling in the shape of a scythe. Yet another nifty trick in my arsenal. I hefted the weapon, its weight perfectly balanced in my hold and its dark curve sharpened to a deadly edge. This puppy existed to dispatch dybbuks; Ben’s aura shield didn’t stand a chance.
“Mut!” I cried.
The Hebrew letters for “die” appeared on my blade and I swung the weapon. It punctured his aura, but in the fraction of a second that it took to hit his chest, my shadow scythe deflated, hanging limply down.
Ben smirked. “I guess you’re just not that into me.”
“Hum a few bars of ‘Love to Love You, Baby,’” I said, “and I’ll get right in the mood.” I restored the weapon’s solidity and attacked again, but each time his magic made a mockery of my powers.
“Get it together,” I gritted to my shadow. I tried everything, gentle encouragement, inspirational speeches, even outright nagging, and nada. Every time my weapon hit his defensive magic, it deflated. All he had to do was stand there and let me tire myself out.
The scythe grew heavier and heavier in my hands until I recalled my magic, bent over and bracing myself on my thighs. “Well, I give up.”
I collapsed on the ground, and the meatsack formerly known as my date kicked me when I was down. As the blow connected with my ribs, I summoned my scythe much faster than I would have been able to do if I was actually tired and rammed the tip into the arch of his bare right foot.
I prayed my hunch payed off and that Operation Fillet of Sole was a success.
At first, it seemed to be: Ben jumped, cursing, and his orange-green light fractured.
Rolling to my feet, I next nailed him in the sternum, but my cry of victory was cut short because no dybbuk exploded out of his body. I narrowed my eyes. Shit. I’d missed his heart. Apparently acing a 200 level biology class twenty-plus years ago did not, in fact, adequately prepare me for this gig.
I swung again, but when my weapon connected with his still-fractured aura, volcanic heat burned down into my hand, angry blisters streaking along my swollen palm. I flinched, almost dropping the scythe.
His surprised look almost matched my own, then he laughed, carefully balancing his weight on his uninjured foot. “I never managed to concentrate my aura into an offensive weapon before.”
“Mazel tov.” I circled him, noting the weak spots in his magic light and reassessing my swing.
He pressed his hand to the blood seeping through his torn shirt, his crackling aura flaring bright in its attempt to meld itself into a whole, and nodded at my burned palm. “How’s the date working out for you now?”
I batted my eyelashes coyly. “Your seduction technique needs work, but don’t worry. I’ll bring you to a hell of a big bang finish.”
Some of Ben’s smugness faded away, his eyes clouding with doubt that he might not win.
I raised my scythe for the killing blow--
Then Ben stumbled back, blinking in confusion at his bloodied hand. “Miriam?” he said in a voice laced tight with pain. “What’s going on?”
I froze, my scythe still raised, warily eyeing him. In my experience, the dybbuk-possessed didn’t tend to blank out what had happened to them. However, I’d never been around anyone when the host consciousness had just died, leaving the dybbuk in charge of the body for the first time, either.
Ben stared numbly at the blood on his hand, and swayed, draining of all color.
I caught him, the scythe winking out of existence as I recalled my magic. “I’ve got you.”
In the blink of an eye, the thing wearing Ben’s body drove a sharp uppercut into my stomach.
Sucker punched by the old “confused innocent” act.
I gasped, my body bucking up under the blow. My eyes rolled back into my head and I collapsed on the ground, wheezing. That would teach me to show compassion to a dybbuk.
Black spots danced in my vision and our lovely picnic dinner from earlier threatened to make an encore appearance. I dug down for one final burst of energy and slammed my magic cloaking over me; the last tool in my Banim Shovavim toolbox.
The black mesh blended with the shadows to completely hide me.
Ben stomped around demanding that I show myself, but I rolled sideways. Not only was I invisible to him, he couldn’t hear my racing heart or my raspy breathing.
I finally managed to sit up, but the world swung sideways in a vertiginous blur, and by the time the nausea had passed and I’d gotten to my feet, Ben’s car was squealing out of the empty parking lot.
“Fuuuuck!” I yanked my underwear out of the crack of my ass, which, to add insult to injury, was wet in a UTI-inducing way, not because I was now limp and deliciously satisfied.
I’d turned down endless invitations from men old enough to be my creepy uncle/father and blocked dick pics accompanied by the stunningly original “hello beautiful.” I knew I was beautiful and my vibrator Lady Catnip had six speeds, thank you very much. Against all odds, I’d found a winner with all his own teeth and an awesomely dorky sense of humor who was single.
Gay, I could have handled. I mean, I’d had years of therapy for that particular situation after my marriage blew up. But no, he was honestly what I wanted, the complete package. He was also now a swampy-ass dybbuk, up to the usual bullshit.
Keeping one hand pressed against my bruised abdomen, I squelched my way back to my sedan. I’d once been told that it only took a dybbuk a second to upend someone’s life, and I refused to be the reason for another person’s misery.
Unlocking my trunk, I pulled out the small Rubbermaid containing my emergency car kit. I had a vague recollection from a long-ago first aid course that I wasn’t supposed to put ointment on a burn, so I used my good hand to crack a small ice pack, binding it against my blistered palm with gauze and a tensor bandage.
I slammed the trunk closed, my fury over the loss of this good man washing over me.
The world had a surreal edge to it as I started the engine. Even the familiar lakeside park looked fake, like I could push over one of the trees as if it were a prop made of nothing more than Styrofoam and paint.
Shivering, I turned up the heat against the chill seeping through my wet dress into my very bones. The situation was simple. Ben the man was gone. And dybbuks were an evil that could not be allowed to roam unchecked.
I pulled out of the parking lot with a heavy heart, lost as to where to begin my pursuit. No, that wasn’t true. On my own, I was lost, but there was one person who’d know how to handle this. Because he always did.
Hotel Terminus lay shrouded in darkness, which didn’t do it any favors. Only Ho Term was visible in the moonlight on the faded sign over the boarded-up front entrance, like it was some kind of college for old-timey prostitutes. Urban Change and the Seaside Doxy, Don’t Clap for the Clap, and Madame, I’m Adam: spotting unsavory clients—Now Registering!
The night accentuated the dirt-streaked stone exterior and rusted wrought-iron balcony railings of the small, three-story, former hotel, but I’d learned not to judge this particular book by its cover.
I rapped on the side door with my uninjured hand, my ear pressed to the frosted glass.
Above me, a bone-gold gibbous moon punctured the light-polluted sky like a knife.
Laurent, my wolf-shifting colleague—friend? I didn’t know how we’d left it—would no doubt be taking advantage of the beautiful night, maybe lazily draped over his sofa, reading a book, while listening to his beloved jazz. Or perhaps he, too, was in deadly predator form, prowling toward a target.
Please let him be home. It was close to midnight by now, so Laurent might have been asleep, but I doubted it.
The quiet hush was only broken by the faint rumble of a passing motorist. Even my knocks sounded jarringly loud, and I was glad that this wasn’t a residential neighborhood.
Railtown had been the epicenter of Japanese-Canadian culture in Vancouver before that community was forced into internment camps after the attack on Pearl Harbor. The old warehouses and factories in this tiny neighborhood wedged between Gastown and Chinatown were slowly being converted into edgy microbreweries and office spaces for creative professionals.
I banged on the door one final time, almost falling forward when it was whipped open with a growled, “What?”
Laurent Amar leaned against the door frame, the jeans sitting low on his hipbones revealing a strip of olive skin with defined abs, and his faded green T-shirt stretched tight across his lithe torso. His hair was a riot of chocolate curls, calling to mind rumpled sheets, but his gaze was sharp, the wolf shifter on constant alert.
His eyes dipped down to the gauze and bandage around my hand. His irises were a brilliant emerald compared to Ben’s pale green, with a shrewd intelligence versus the dybbuk’s sly cunning.
I’d removed the ice pack, but under the shifter’s scrutiny, I hid my hand behind my back.
“Merde,” he swore.
“I need help.” I shivered, the burn sending waves of chills and flushes through my body in equal succession.
“That much is evident.” Nothing like French-accented English to really nail monumental disdain. Laurent tugged me inside and slammed the door, wrinkling his nose. Nat King Cole crooned softly from a large art deco radio on the mahogany hutch, and there was a stack of sheet music tossed on top of the old upright piano. “Why do you smell like seaweed? You are aware, Mitzi, that a sushi roll is a delicacy, not an exercise, yes?”
“For your information, I was on a date.” I wrung out the hem of my dress, taking a petty satisfaction when he winced at the water dripping onto his hardwood floor.
“Did he misunderstand the concept of getting a woman wet?” He said it in a perfectly polite voice with a bland smile on his face, and never had I wanted to punch someone so much.
No, that wasn’t true. As far as snarky comebacks from him rated, this barely cracked the top five.
Laurent stepped back, and I ran my tongue over my teeth, realizing my answering smile might have been a tad feral.
“Come in and warm up.” He nodded across the former lobby to the sofa.
The checkerboard parquet gleamed like molten sunshine and the scent of pine filled the hotel lobby that Laurent had lovingly restored into a large living and dining area. Honey-rich sconce light bounced off the pale-yellow arched ceiling and reflected off the deep red walls to transform the space into the inside of a bejeweled genie’s bottle.
I couldn’t appreciate its soothing beauty because every passing second wound the vise around my chest tighter. Had Ben already found the first person to prey upon?
“There’s no time,” I said. “We’ve got a dybbuk on the loose. I’ll fill you in while you get your shoes on.”
“I’m not listening to you like this. Your chattering teeth are irritating me.”
You charmer. I made a “get on with it motion” with a twirl of my finger, remaining where I was. “You can work out your irritation when you rip out the heart.”
He fished a motorcycle boot off the shoe rack and dropped it on the floor. “You saw one on your date?”
“And you couldn’t bear to miss even a moment with this paragon to deal with it?”
“Not exactly.” I jingled my car keys. “There’s no time for details.”
Laurent narrowed his eyes, a hard slash of green under his dusky sweep of lashes. “Details are the difference between life and death.”
I examined my car fob with a studied nonchalance. “The dybbuk was my date.”
The shifter exploded in laughter, great belly laughs that made his entire body shake. Every trace of his usual guardedness was gone, his face softer and more innocent. He braced his hand on the doorframe, his curls bouncing crazily, and his merriment radiating outward like the happiest song on a perfect summer day.
At any other moment, I’d have caved under its lure and joined him, but all my amusement with this evening had died back on the shore of the lake. “Get over yourself. I need you to sniff him out.”
From one breath to another, his mirth vanished. “I’m not your tracking dog.”
His iciness sucked all the warmth from the space. Laurent was the most guarded person I’d ever met and right now, I didn’t have the energy to deal with his defensiveness. But I didn’t want to hurt him either.
“I didn’t mean…” I placed my uninjured hand on his forearm, which tensed under my touch. “I lost the dybbuk and all I can think about is how anything that happens is my fault because I wasn’t good enough to kill it.”
“Nothing he does is your fault,” he said gravely. “If the ones that I hunt do terrible things before I get to them, do you think I take those onto my conscience?”
“Even if I don’t blame myself, other Ohrists will. They might intellectually understand the reasons why he had to be dispatched and not hate me, but it’ll be awkward and uncomfortable running into them. You, of all people, know it’s true.”
Laurent scrubbed a hand over his face, looking much wearier than a moment ago, and sighed. “Yes.”
“And that’s the best-case scenario.” I paced in a tight circle. “Any Sapiens in his life will either be fed a lie about his death or told nothing at all, leaving them to forever wonder if they could have done something to prevent it.”
A prime directive of the magic community was that no Sapien, the magicless humans who made up most of the world’s population, ever learn about the existence of magic.
Laurent loosely gripped my wrists. “Stop. Torturing yourself won’t help.”
“We kept our drinking to before sunset. I wasn’t totally foolhardy.”
Those with magic knew better than to drink during the Danger Zone—sundown Friday to sundown Saturday—because dybbuks were given the Sabbath off from being tortured in Gehenna and would just move right in to any magic person with lowered inhibitions. Go figure. Humans had to wage strikes for the right to a weekend, but the evil dead things got a VIP day pass, no problem.
“And the extra tragic icing on this shit cake? Ben didn’t get inhabited because he was drunk or high,” I said sadly. “He stayed up too late last week because he was crazy passionate about linguistics and his defenses were lowered due to his exhaustion.”
“Miriam.” Laurent rarely used my full name. “Enough.”
I pulled away. “Yeah. Okay.”
“Attends.” He spoke the French command and jogged out of the room.
Laurent had once called me a soft-hearted fool for showing compassion to my target. While I refused to live in a world that had no room for mercy, there was a difference between compassion and a moment of weakness. Ben hadn’t deserved this fate, and I’d so badly wanted to believe it was still him in there.
After a divorce, a couple forgettable short relationships, and feeling invisible, I mourned the loss of hope as much as I did Ben. Was a giddy, fizzy romantic connection even a possibility or would the shadow path I’d chosen keep me away from that light?
Laurent was wrong about none of this being my fault. If I’d been more decisive, more hard-hearted, I could have prevented Ben’s escape, and if anyone got hurt—or worse—I’d have to live with that.
Even if I dispatched Ben before he harmed anyone, I’d be causing pain to his siblings and friends. His family had already lost one of Ben’s brothers to heroin. They didn’t deserve to suffer more. Also, I was trying to make inroads in the magical community after being absent from it for so long, and killing Ben couldn’t be smoothed over with a “Hi, sorry about that!” batch of cookies.
I longed to sink into the huge sofa with one of the books from the wall-to-wall bookshelves and let the warmth seep into my chilled bones, but I only permitted myself a single longing glance. I could wallow after the dybbuk had been caught.
Laurent returned and tossed me a bundle of fabric in a plastic bag.
“Put these on,” he said. “If we’re hunting him down, you can’t do it in wet clothes.”
“Has Hell frozen over? You’re not going to argue with me about coming along?” I picked up the thick socks that had fallen to the ground.
“Has Hell frozen over and you’d listen if I did?” He arched an eyebrow imperiously and strode over to the sofa, boots in hand. “Speak while you change. Don’t leave anything out.”
Shifters had a very relaxed attitude towards public nudity, but while I liked my middle-aged body, there was a difference between appreciating it and disrobing in front of a ridiculously toned sort-of-former-partner male who was also a few years younger.
I could tell Laurent to turn around and deal with his eye roll or… Launching into the tale, I strode past the burnished curving staircase which led up to the closed-off second floor.
The old-fashioned copper elevator doors carved with diamonds and swirls were ajar, as was the inner iron gate, so I stepped inside and shucked off my sandals. The car had been converted into a bunker-like room lined in iron with handcuffs on heavy chains bolted to the wall. Some people had in-home theaters, others had dungeons capable of holding all kinds of supernatural creatures. To each their own.
One eye on the elevator door, I peeled off my wet clothes. “Dessert,” I fumed, recalling the kiss-that-wasn’t. “He didn’t even choose to have his wicked way with me. Second-rate dybbuk.”
“You appreciate that it’s totally fucked up to be upset about that, yes?” Laurent said from the main room.
“Yes! But I expected better, I mean, worse, from an evil fiend.” Ben and I had never made it to our first kiss and we never would. I pressed Laurent’s sweatshirt to my chest, unsure whether having that memory made it easier or not.
“Why didn’t you check if Ben was enthralled?”
“What were the odds that the first guy I’d dated in ages would have a dybbuk inside him?” I got dressed in the dry clothes, trying not to use my burned hand.
If a dybbuk did inhabit a host, there was a week of enthrallment, where they battled for possession of the body. While I could sense if a person was enthralled, their shadow still looked normal, and I really had to probe to discover the fiend inside them. Ben had been enthralled when I met him; our relationship was doomed before it began.
Had I known on some level that he was inhabited when I met him? Had I been attracted to that? Creatures of darkness unite! I shook my head, refusing to believe it. Banim Shovavim magic was the only thing that could detect when a host was enthralled. I would have been the only one who could have gotten the dybbuk out of Ben and saved him. But now it was too late.
“Ben was an Ohrist, he knew it was preventable,” I said. “And it’s not like he displayed any of the sudden personality changes inherent to being enthralled during our other two dates or even tonight before his final metamorphosis.”
“Soft-hearted,” Laurent chided.
“Or just not totally cynical. Besides, I did my pre-date homework, as my ability to imagine worst-case scenarios is beyond compare.”
He chuckled softly.
“I grilled Jude about every potential downside of meeting Ben, including the possibility of hitting it off only to discover that he had multiple families stashed in various cities, but him going full dybbuk hadn’t even occurred to me.”
“And yet multiple families was a likelihood?” Laurent mused.
“Read the internet. It happens.” I pressed my nose to the shoulder of the sweatshirt, sniffing the trace of his cedar scent. “Should I ever do this again, candidates can damn well fill out a detailed questionnaire before I agree to anything.”
Stuffing my wet dress in the plastic bag, I described Ben’s aura magic and gave a summary of our fight, then returned to the living room, rolling up the legs that were about six inches too long for me.
Laurent tilted his head, his eyes flaring hot and bright before narrowing for an instant, an indecipherable look on his face. “You can keep those.”
“Uh, okay.” I wrapped my arms around myself, my shoulders creeping up to my ears. Not knowing what he was thinking was preferable to the contempt he’d lather on when he heard this last part.
“Then what?” he prodded at my lapse, tapping his phone impatiently against his thigh.
“Ben got all confused and upset and swayed helplessly, and…” I screwed up my face.
Laurent leaned back against his couch, one elbow draped carelessly over the back. “He blinked his big blue eyes and you were helpless to resist?”
“First off, they were green.”
A muscle in Laurent’s jaw tensed. “That’s what you think is relevant right now?”
I balled up the bag with my dress, crinkling the plastic. “Look, the host and the dybbuk fight for control during the enthralled stage. I thought that happened immediately after full possession.”
“It doesn’t. He played you.”
“Yes, thank you. I cottoned on to that fact.”
“Is that when he burned your hand? At the end?” He sounded angry, although whether it was at me or at the dybbuk remained unclear.
I flipped my bandaged palm up. “No. That was earlier. This time he just punched me and left. Typical guy. Got his rocks off and didn’t wait for the woman to finish.”
Laurent frowned, but I’d caught the quirk of his lips. “Anything else?”
I thought about it, then shook my head.
He stood up, holding out his phone’s screen. “Is this him?”
The photo from Ben’s sole social media profile had caught him laughing and holding a raised glass of wine on a balcony overlooking a vineyard.
I smiled wistfully. “Yeah.”
“Do you know where he lives?”
“No. Why?” Did he assume this date had gotten hot and heavy? Was he judging my behavior?
“Newly possessed hosts will often hunt in the neighborhood most familiar to them.”
Oh. “What happened to ‘don’t shit where you live’?”
“Dybbuks don’t care,” he said. “They exist to cause misery.”
It made sense that they’d start with the people who knew and loved them the most closely.
“Jude might know where Ben lives.” I called my best friend but reached her voice mail. She was probably in her studio with pottery clay on her hands and not checking her phone. Even though I left a message, we couldn’t depend on her getting it in time to help us. “Now what?”
Laurent glanced at the photo once more without comment. “Now we find him.”
I jogged behind him to the side door. “How will you track him? Do we drive around until you pick up his scent?”
He stopped so suddenly that I whacked into his back. “Oh, no. I am not riding in the Give-Up-Mobile again,” he said, referring to the horrid name he’d given my car.
I rubbed my nose. “That is not and will not ever be its official label. Besides, my sedan is perfectly serviceable.”
He leaned in. “But my motorcycle is fun.” His accent shivered through me.
No, fun was what I had with my sixteen-year-old daughter when we hung out. Riding on Laurent’s bike, my cheek pressed against his leather jacket and my arms hugging his hips, with the sights and sounds of the city rushing past me, feeling brilliantly alive was…
I exhaled. A smart, funny man had died tonight because he’d stayed up too late and in his fatigue, a dybbuk had possessed him. “Another time,” I said brusquely.
Laurent heaved a sigh and shrugged into his leather jacket. “Allons-y.”
He directed me to an address downtown, then rested his head back against the passenger seat, his eyes closed.
“Why do you always nap when I drive?” I turned onto Cordova Street following the curving road through the downtown eastside.
The normally crowded streets were devoid of life this late at night, but the overflowing trashcans, payday loan businesses every few blocks, and rows of dingy single-room-occupancy hotels were a reminder that this was one of Canada’s poorest neighborhoods.
“What do you want me to do?” he said.
“Talk to me.”
He cracked an eye open. “Fine. Tell me another of the trivia you are so fond of and then I will comment on it.”
I sniffed. “Some people enjoy my wealth of knowledge.” Ben had.
I gripped the wheel, but needle-sharp pain gnawed at my burned flesh, and with a wince, I quickly relaxed my hold. If only I’d never met Ben, never traded nerdy jokes, or gushed over our shared love of British crime dramas. If only he’d been a stranger whom I could coldly dispatch.
Up ahead, the light turned red and I braked, flexing my injured hand and checking for pus or blood. “Spider webs were used as bandages in ancient Greece and Rome.”
“Doctors wrapped them over honey and vinegar salves on injured soldiers.” He mimed the action as he spoke. “They dried out open wounds faster and had antifungal and antiseptic properties to keep bacteria away.”
“Really?” Happily, my bandage was seepage-free. No spider webs necessary. “That would minimize the chances of an infection at a time when infections were as deadly as the wounds themselves. I didn’t know that part, but it makes sense.”
Laurent tapped his head. “The wolf is book-learned, remember, Mitzi? Up your game.”
“Is that a challenge?”
He shrugged. “Only if you don’t want me to nap.”
Once the light changed to green, I turned left onto Richards Street, new high-rises displacing the older single-story buildings. “Am I here for your amusement?”
He grinned. “You said it, not me.”
I looked away because I hadn’t stifled my smile as thoroughly as I’d liked. “How about you entertain me for a change?”
“I already entertain you plenty.”
“Eh. You mildly amuse on occasion.”
He shot me a lofty look, motioning for me to pull over in front of a condo complex made of pale pink stone blocks. “Prepare to eat your words.”
Laurent’s predatory nature rolled off him even as he loped along the sidewalk, his animal side a part of whatever skin he wore. This wolf shifter who surrounded himself with books and music was a fascinating enigma. He seemed to embrace both halves of himself, but I wondered if he clung to art and culture as a way to anchor his humanity. Was he only ever a breath away from turning feral forever?
Some Ohrists believed he was already too far gone to be brought back to “civility” and treated him like a dog that needed to be put down, but even those who didn’t share that impression treated him with disdain for doing the dirty work of killing dybbuks.
Shaking my head, I hurried to catch up, grateful for the warmer clothing. My sandals were still damp, but tolerable with the thick socks Laurent had provided, while the sweats kept the night breeze at bay. I joined him at the high front gates, hooked my fingers around the iron filigree design, and peered into the inner courtyard, which was lit by orbs of warm light staggered along the walls.
Laurent gave a soft whistle: one long blast followed by two shorter ones. He nudged me and I craned my head up.
A dark shape hunkering on the roof’s edge scampered down the side of the building on all fours.
My mouth fell open as the gargoyle silently leapt onto the sidewalk next to us with a balletic grace.
The stone sculpture sat on her back haunches, the top of her head about chest height, exposing stubby claws on each of her three long back toes. She blinked slowly, her eyes fathomless beads under a heavy forehead textured with the same “fur” that mottled the rest of her body, and her mouth wide and mobile. Studded stone bracelets circled her front legs, but she had no tail, and her ears were much wider than a regular cat’s.
She was exquisite—and rare. Most gargoyles were exactly as they appeared, inanimate objects.
“Laurent,” she purred, her Italian accent pure honey. She rubbed her head languorously against his side.
“Ciao, Giulia,” he said, doing a kind of squirmy shuffle. Dude was terrible with physical closeness. He’d probably run for the hills if anyone tried to hug him.
I raised a tentative hand in greeting, my rush of awe tempered by the desire to hide myself with my cloaking magic. A real cat had almost taken out my eyeball once, and while I may have been taken in by Ben’s performance, even I wasn’t dumb enough to believe I was the alpha where any cat was concerned. “Hi. I’m Miriam.”
Giulia trailed a claw back and forth across her throat, while marking Laurent even more with her cheek.
I wagged a finger between the two of them. “Should I give you some privacy so you can pee on your territory or can we get on with it?”
Laurent looked horrified and stepped away from the gargoyle, but the stone cat looked at me thoughtfully.
“Is she always like this?” The gargoyle used her paws like human hands, gesturing with the same expressive jabs as the sharp-tempered Sicilian woman who owned my local deli.
“Unfortunately,” he said.
Giulia gave another slow blink, then nodded. “Va bene. I don’t like people, but if you give this one grief, you may stay.” She rubbed her head against my side as well.
“And my night is complete,” Laurent muttered.
“Oh. Okay.” Caught off-guard by this transfer of affections, I figured I’d return the sentiment and pet her, but Laurent caught my hand with a swift motion, shaking his head no.
“Any trouble tonight?” he asked her.
The gargoyle stretched sinuously, then calmly licked a stone paw. “Always with the dybbuks,” she said in a petulant voice. “You never come to just visit me.”
Laurent crouched down, his hand resting on her head. “Au contraire, Giulia, I find every excuse to be in your presence.”
I rolled my eyes hard. He always laid his French accent on thick when he was being charming, which meant it was never used on me. To be fair, he was smart enough to know better than to try.
“Sadly, he is a man of finite imagination,” I said.
Laurent upped the charm offensive with a piratical smile, flashing even white teeth between his lush lips. “C’est vrai.” He pursed his lips sadly. “I go blank in your presence, Giulia, such is your effect on me.”
I made a gagging noise and he kicked my ankle, but the gargoyle was eating it up.
She preened and gave a happy rumble.
Laurent pulled out his phone and showed her the photo of Ben he’d found earlier.
She studied it for a moment, then between one blink and the next, she lay on her belly, her eyes turning from black marbles to an eerily glowing gold and flickering like a movie projector.
“What’s going on?” I murmured.
“Giulia sees through the eyes of those who blindly watch,” he said. “Statues, ornamental faces on the façade of a building, all become her eyes in the city. If the dybbuk is out on the town, she’ll find him.”
“I didn’t know gargoyles could do that.”
“It’s tied to their original function of warding off evil. The few who gained sentience and had wings were able to fulfill that duty by flying over the city and seeing what evil lurked. Those without wings, like Giulia, did it by gaining sight through the sightless. Letting them be her eyes.” He grinned. “You’re entertained, aren’t you?”
“I’m freaking blown away.”
Giulia’s lashes flickered, but she didn’t snap out of her reverie.
“Five bucks says Ben’s hunting on the Granville Strip,” I said, referencing the popular entertainment district that would be teeming with people coming out of bars and clubs.
“It’s too close,” Laurent said. “I’d smell him.”
“What do dybbuks smell like to you?” I said.
He scowled. “Patchouli.”
“My condolences.” I stiffened at the sound of raucous laughter drawing near, but it was just a couple tottering drunkenly back to a nearby condo tower. “Why can’t you sniff him out yourself no matter where he is?”
“My range is limited to that of a wolf’s, which is still far superior to most.” Laurent spread his hands wide, as if saying he couldn’t help being better than everyone.
“Not bears,” I said. “They totally out-smell wolves. They’re smarter, too.”
“Debatable,” he scoffed.
“Nope.” I rocked back on my heels, trying to keep a straight face. “It’s pretty much empirical fact. But it’s okay, Huff ’n’ Puff.” He scowled at the nicknamed I’d bestowed on him at our first meeting and I flashed him a thumbs-up. “You’re still special.”
“That is also empirical fact and much more interesting than that other rubbish.” He got that grumpy look on his face that always made me want to grin and ruffle his curls.
Laurent definitely was special where his magic was concerned. Ohrists derived their powers from “ohr,” the Hebrew word for light, and the Kabbalistic concept of a supernatural life force that existed organically in the universe.
While Sapiens weren’t able to sense or tap into “ohr,” Ohrists were gifted. Their ability to manipulate light and life energy manifested in many different ways: healing, animating objects, manipulating auras or blood or body parts, even shooting lasers or hard light orbs, and, of course, shifting, though they generally only had one talent.
Laurent was the sole Ohrist with the ability to scent dybbuks out, but only once they’d fully possessed the host. How he’d trained to do this remained a mystery that I was very curious to solve.
A text came in from Jude giving Ben’s neighborhood and asking for date details.
I sighed and replied that I’d speak to her in the morning. “Ben lives somewhere off Commercial Drive.” The Little Italy area of Vancouver.
Laurent zoomed into a map of that area on his phone, muttering under his breath as he dismissed different possibilities.
“Save yourself the time. He’s at Grandview Park,” I said. “Right off the main street, packs of roaming teens hanging out, dark. Good hunting grounds for a dybbuk.”
“Perhaps,” he said.
I hadn’t forgotten why we were here, but I’d allowed myself a precious few minutes of easy banter while we waited for Giulia’s response. With the thought of Ben hurting any kids, however, the mood shifted, the weight of my task pressing in on me more forcefully than ever.
Giulia shivered, the gold glow vanishing. “Grandview Park.”
“Merci,” Laurent said, ignoring my smirk.
“Yes, thanks, Giulia.”
The gargoyle licked first Laurent’s hand and then mine, her tongue rasping against my skin like the brush of sandpaper.
“Ciao, ragazzi.” She launched herself off the sidewalk, soaring high to land once more on her skyscraper perch.
It just wasn’t fair. Ben and I had spent a lovely June evening together, sharing delicious tapas and light-hearted banter, salsa music from the nearby live concert providing a sultry soundtrack. Making genuine connections in a superficial world was hard, but hope had taken root in my chest like a delicate stalk that I’d found someone who could make me happy.
I’d been divorced now for ten years and I had great friends and a loving family. I didn’t need a man to complete me, but I still craved an emotional connection with someone I loved and respected on a life partner level.
Just like my parents had had.
The one thing that had shone brightly in my last few moments with them was their love for each other. Looking back, that was the last time anything in my life had truly been normal and with everything that had happened recently, I craved that more than ever. An anchor to ground my world. But how was that even possible when bonding over a glass of wine on a Friday night date or staying up late, talking about everything and nothing, finding that person who could be my safe harbor, could lead to dybbuk possession and death?
Did living with magic mean never fully relaxing my guard, never fully being comfortable?
Never having any sense of peace?
Laurent studied me, and I hurried ahead, needing to get out from under that keen gaze and compose myself for what was yet to come. I beeped the fob on my car, but glancing up at Giulia, a motionless statue once more, I shivered.
We’d gotten Ben’s location, but were we already too late?
Laurent instructed me to pull over a block downwind of the park. He stepped out of the car, inhaled, and swore. “He’s gone.”
“No!” I sprinted up the sidewalk past darkened houses, despising the activity every bit as much as I had in high school gym class, and turned into the park, which occupied a couple of city blocks.
Wheezing, one hand pressed to my side, I hurried over to the group of kids hanging out on the bike polo courts, passing around contraband bottles of vodka coolers, their laughter too sharp and high.
I leaned on the chain link fence. “Hi there. Were there any other kids here tonight?”
The teens ignored me.
I peered at the group, then waved at one boy I recognized. “Hey, Tyler.”
The scrawny boy hunched into his jacket as if he wished he could make me disappear. Please. This kid had been in school with my daughter since kindergarten. I’d spent a half hour with him feeding ducks during a petting zoo school trip, feigning interest as he explained Minecraft in excruciating detail. He owed me.
“How’s your mom? Did she ever switch from corporate law to family law?” I smiled at the group. “And Kelsey. Love the haircut.”
I could keep going with at least three more kids, but the two I’d singled out slunk over to the fence.
“Well played,” Laurent said.
“I am not without my talents,” I murmured.
“Don’t I know it?”
I grinned at him, but schooled my face into a suitably stern expression to face Sadie’s friends.
“Are you going to bust us?” Kelsey said.
“Nope. That’s a conversation for you to have with your parents. But I do need to know if there were any other teens here tonight and if you saw a blond man with glasses.”
Kelsey shook her head. “It’s only been us for the last hour.”
“What about the man?” I said. “He might have looked injured.”
“Don’t know about injured,” Tyler said, “but yeah, some perv with glasses was watching us earlier.”
I glanced at Laurent, but he shook his head.
“Do you know which way he went?” I asked.
They consulted with their friends then pointed east, down the hill.
“Thanks. Now go—”
Laurent nudged me. “Until we find him, they’re safer here than running loose.”
I nodded. “Stick together tonight.”
“Stranger danger?” Kelsey smirked.
“Something like that. Watch over each other, okay?”
“Okay, Miriam,” they chorused and returned to their friends.
We set off. Dread weighed me down, turning every step into a massive effort. “Do you smell patchouli?”
“No, just weed.”
“That’s a given around here,” I said.
Laurent jogged down the sidewalk, stopping by an entrance to the Britannia complex, which included two schools and a community center. He walked a few steps in different directions, sniffing the air.
“Anything?” I said, when I caught up with him.
“Faintly.” He frowned and headed onto the track located out back of the high school. “It’s hard to get a lock on it.”
“I’m slowing you down. Take off and catch him.”
Laurent stiffened and laid a finger against his lips. “Wait. I smell vamps.”
Immediately, I reached for my magic. Black mesh swam up to hide us and mask the sound of our heartbeats and breathing from everyone—unless the head vamp here in Vancouver was with them, in which case, my cloaking was useless.
Gripping Laurent’s bicep, I rose onto tiptoe to ask that whispered question, feeling the tickle of curls as he shook his head.
He pressed two fingers against my arm.
Two against two. Pretty good odds, depending on how old the vampires were. I gnawed the inside of my cheek.
Ben was still out there, but he might not be up to anything nefarious right now, while we were the only things standing between the vamps and those kids. The bloodsuckers hadn’t sent out a specific memo regarding their intentions, but it wasn’t cupcakes and pony rides.
“We are like Butch and Sundance in the movie.” I could hear the grin in Laurent’s words.
“That didn’t end so well,” I hissed. “They were bleeding so hard they could barely hold their guns, then they stepped out to a hail of bullets. Now be quiet.”
“It ended in a freeze frame of them shooting,” he said with an infuriating matter-of-factness, making no attempt to whisper. “They blazed their way to freedom.”
I blew my hair out of my eyes with an annoyed huff, and my grip on him tightened as I used him for balance to rise up and whisper into his ear. “Do you actually believe this nonsense or are you just arguing to annoy me?”
A male vampire with green hair matching his army jacket and a female with an impressive mohawk, both sporting big shitkicker boots, stepped onto the far end of the track, not even trying to be stealthy. In fact, if it hadn’t been for their pale skin practically glowing translucent in the moonlight, I would have dismissed them as just another couple of punk youths.
The male’s voice carried clearly. “You’re sure the dybbuk said to meet at Grandview Park?”
“Positive.” The female vamp clomped along, kicking pebbles. “Mr. BatKian is through the roof over everyone disrupting his schedule today, so you and I get to be the lucky ducks to negotiate territory with this dybbuk.” She grimaced. “I hope this doesn’t turn into another Mei Lin situation.”
I tightened my grip on Laurent’s shoulder. The vamps weren’t after the kids. They were to meet Ben on behalf of the head vampire. Bloodsuckers’ agendas never boded well for humans, especially if they wanted to make a deal with a dybbuk. I’d seen people die because of callous immortals and refused to let it happen again.
By failing to kill Ben earlier, had I brought this about? Had he arranged this meeting with the vamps, knowing that if they protected him, Laurent and I would be forced to let him roam free?
I frowned. If that was true, why had Ben left the park? What was more important than making this meeting?
Laurent had stilled, an anticipatory gleam in his eyes, tracking every footfall bringing the vamps closer.
I glared at him, slicing my hand along my throat in warning not to do anything rash like--
He shrugged mischievously, like a kid at the back of a classroom about to launch a paper airplane when the teacher wasn’t looking, and stepped out from under the cloaking with an evil grin. “Come and get me, espèce d’enfoirés!”
I sighed. Anything rash like hurl himself headfirst into danger, as the shifter was so fond of doing.
He ran at the vampires, plowing into Green Hair and crashing him into the chain link fence, sending a jingling ripple along it. The male vamp recovered immediately and Laurent flipped backward to avoid a punch.
I summoned my magic, glad to have Delilah stand shoulder-to-shoulder with me as we faced the female vamp.
“Are we really doing this along gender lines?” I asked.
The female vamp swaggering toward me stopped. “Huh?”
I gestured at the boys, pummeling each other with over-the top grunts and curses that did little to hide that they were in their happy place. “Why can’t I fight him?”
Mohawk glanced back at them over her shoulder.
Laurent barked a laugh, already lost to battle mania. Blood streamed down his left shoulder and his eyes were aglow with a wild light. He deftly avoided his opponent’s punch, rolling his shoulder up and forward, and tucking his chin to his chest. Shifting his weight, he pivoted with crazy precision to bob in close and slam his palm up under the vamp’s chin.
He was poetry in motion, almost breathtaking in how destructive he was.
But his opponent had his own moves. Hooking a foot around Laurent’s ankle, he took the shifter down. Laurent’s skull hit the ground with a meaty thud, but instead of trying to get away, he ignored his injuries to redouble his efforts.
Here he goes again, I thought tiredly.
“Yeah.” The female vamp scowled. “Why am I stuck with the weak link?”
“I’m hardly weak,” I said. Delilah dropped into fighting stance.
The vamp cracked her knuckles. “I ate people like you for breakfast when I was still human.”
“When you say ‘ate,’ do you mean that literally, metaphorically, or is that a sexual euphemism?”
Mohawk slammed me up against a metal fence post, squeezing my windpipe, her long purple fingernails digging into my skin.
I closed my eyes, seeing her through Delilah’s green night vision.
The vampire’s fangs descended…and she froze, unable to close that final hair’s-breadth and sink her teeth into me.
Oh good. She was still an undead youngster and wouldn’t be able to move while Delilah clutched her shadow. Which Delilah was currently doing, thanks to my expert talents.
I tore free, then pulling my lighter out of my purse, I took the vamp’s shadow into my own grip. Icy darkness glooped through my fingers, turning the tips white but numbing the burn. Look at that, vamps were good for something. Not wanting further damage to my poor palm, however, I shoved the flame into the heart of the bloodsucker’s shadow.
She gave a high, thin cry and dissolved into ash.
I’d made my peace with killing vamps, but I still spared a second to mourn the loss of life. Well, it had been her or me. I whistled sharply, but neither of the males paid attention until Delilah kicked the male vamp in the crotch. Yowling, he doubled over, clutching his groin.
I snapped my fingers at Laurent. “Shift.”
“I don’t need to.” He twisted the male’s arm up behind his back.
“Fine. Stay here with your new playmate. I’ll go after Ben.”
Laurent rammed his knee into Green Hair’s stomach. “Not without me.”
“Then get on with it already.”
“Killjoy,” he said. But he jogged away, pulling his shirt off, his back muscles flexing and bunching.
Green Hair followed a half dozen steps in that direction until I grabbed his shadow, gritting my teeth against the cold. He struggled for a moment, but then he freed himself, homing in on me.
Shit. He was a much older vampire, skilled enough to break my hold entirely.
I backed up on rubbery legs, tracking Laurent’s progress in bursts of sound: the slide of fabric against skin, the clank of a belt buckle, the thud of a shoe.
The vampire grinned, knowing Laurent was vulnerable in this state, and sprinted off.
Not being an Olympic runner, I threw Delilah at him once more. She jumped on his back, choking him out, while he spun in a circle, attempting to dislodge her.
Laurent gave a pained yowl, his tearing skin sounding like a paper bag crinkling loudly. I instinctively glanced over, flinching at his spine grinding into its new shape and his shoulders morphing into haunches.
Laurent’s wide eyes met mine, his expression haunted.
With Delilah still on his back, my attacker wrenched me up by my hair. The sharp blaze of pain in my head snapped my psychic link with my shadow as I struggled to get free without tearing my scalp off.
The fiend looked at me with death in his eyes and slammed me down over his knee, dropping me like trash.
I hit the dirt, winded and coughing through the taste of bile. My lower half blazed with pain. This was going to require a chiropractor/massage therapy double hitter to heal—if I lived that long.
The vampire moved swiftly, his shadow melding into the others on the ground so I couldn’t differentiate it to seize hold of it.
“Laurent,” I said in a broken whisper.
He crouched on all fours, fully in wolf form, save for his arms and head. One elbow snapped into its new anatomical position with a sharp crack while his ears shrank to nubs that crawled up the side of his head, growing into furry triangles.
The vampire rammed his boot into my side, kicking me onto my back like a rag doll.
I clutched my ribs and jerked away, narrowly avoiding being curb stomped.
Laurent charged him, his transformation not yet complete, but the bloodsucker flung him off with super strength, hurling the shifter into a concrete wall. With a wet gurgle, he slid to the ground, leaving a bloody streak in his wake, and slumped over, part-wolf, part-human and entirely motionless.
I couldn’t breathe.
That wasn’t supposed to happen. Sure, Laurent had agreed to come along because killing dybbuks was his calling and he was a danger-prone idiot, but he’d had my back in this fresh hell, simply because I asked. It mattered if he was hurt because of me.
Adrenaline flooded my system like an icy serpent trying to escape, sweat beading the back of my neck. I pushed onto all fours, but my arms gave way with a jolt of pain and, half-sobbing, I crashed down.
“Zev is going to shit himself!” the vampire crowed, high off his kill. “I crushed that fucker.”
The words entered my brain in an almost robotic fashion, each individual one having meaning, but the overall shape slipping away. Laurent couldn’t be dead. He was too lethal—no, too stubborn—to be killed that easily. But he’d been in a vulnerable in-between state and strain as I might, I didn’t see or hear anything. Not a growl, a rumble, or the faintest click of claws.
Mustering up my last reserve of energy, I looked over at my fallen partner, willing him to breathe, but he was an unmoving pile of bloodied fur. I lay my forehead against the grass, feeling like I’d sunk into a dark bog, sorrow punching through my soul and eating away at the very marrow of my bones.
Ruthlessly shoving all my grief down, I pushed to my feet. There was only one way to honor Laurent and make sure his death hadn’t been in vain. I’d kill the vampire then dispatch Ben before any deal with Zev BatKian could be struck.
My iron-clad determination gave me a rush of energy to speed up—and immediately freeze as a loud growl pierced the air.
Laurent rose fluidly to his feet in a serious warrior ninja move.
Alerted, the bloodsucker ran towards him, but my friend finished his shift in record time. His head jolted backwards, his face rippling violently before a heavy muzzle snapped out, his teeth lengthening and changing shape.
The wolf bared his lips, light glinting off his fangs, his eyes furious green slashes. He sprinted at the vamp in a blur of white, tearing his throat out with a savage howl.
Green Hair’s head hurtled through the air.
It bounced on the ground like a lost kickball, limply rolling to a stop by the track. I blinked. Then a laugh escaped me and I kicked the head into the wall like I was scoring the winning goal in the FIFA World Cup. “Asshole.”
The wolf leapt across the track into the grassy center, landing silently beside me on massive paws with a lithe elegance. His wounds bled freely but every coiled muscle was imprinted with deadly intent. He reminded me of a perfect rose, my mind glossing over the fat thorns capable of rending flesh, in the face of such heart-stopping beauty.
He was also happily gnawing on a rib.
I could have kissed his nose.
“Nice that you got a snack.” I pointed up across the track. “Go get ’em, champ. But leave the killing for me.”
He dropped the bone, flicked his tail, and set off for the dybbuk in an easy lope that was still stupidly fast, his tongue lolling out like he was gamboling through the woods.
Green Hair’s various remains cast nice sharp shadows, so I took a moment to thrust them into my lighter and turn them to ash, before hiding Laurent’s clothes in a dark corner. A mom’s clean-up never ended.
My second wind hit me, sort of, and I hobbled across the track, following the growls that Laurent threw out like breadcrumbs.
The wolf had Ben cornered in the playground of another neighborhood park, this one much smaller than the first. The dybbuk wore a zipped jacket, hiding all traces of his torn shirt and blood, yet he didn’t even bat an eyelash at the angry wounded shifter prowling back and forth in front of him. Had he already harmed someone? I had to get him to tell me.
“Oh, hey, we foiled your plans,” I called out. “Killed the vamps who were supposed to meet you.”
Ben rocked himself slowly on a swing with one foot. He blew out a cloud of smoke, infusing the air with a skunky musk, then ground the joint out under his foot in the dirt. “Did you?”
I stilled, his nonchalance filling me with unease. “Why did you leave the original meeting spot at Grandview Park?”
“You and the wolf showed up, so I left.”
The wolf’s fur stood on end and his rumbling growl vibrated up through my toes. Yeah, yeah. Calm down.
“Impossible. Laurent didn’t smell you.”
Ben toed at the joint. “Weed overpowers a lot of other scents. It was worth a shot.” He chuckled. “And here I was worried those kids had sold me oregano.”
A dybbuk who could disguise his scent from Laurent and evade detection would be horrific. We had to dispatch him now. Except he knew our intentions and it was weird that the dybbuk wasn’t already rushing in for a fight, instead of getting high. Was this some sort of trap?
But wait. Earlier, Ben hadn’t attacked me until I struck first. And now, he was making no moves on the wolf, so what if his impulses were self-destructive? Or rather, what if the dybbuk’s only interest was in causing pain to the people who cared about Ben most?
I sucked in a breath. “You’re not planning on physically hurting anyone. You never were. That’s not your style, is it?”
The dybbuk cocked his head, eyes glimmering with darkness. “You got it. I’m a pacifist.”
“No, you’re a saboteur. You intend to make Ben’s friends and family watch the man they loved die slowly,” I continued, my hands clenched at my sides, “killing himself through addiction, preying on their mercy as they try to help him. You want them to suffer because they don’t realize he’s dybbuk-possessed.”
He shrugged. “Everyone goes for the big violent act, but those sudden changes in character are a dead giveaway that the person they loved is gone. Pretend I’ve fallen prey to an addiction? That’s entertainment.”
“It wouldn’t just be you that friends and family have to helplessly watch go through this. You’d also be forcing them to relive Ben’s brother’s death all over again. But worse, because as awful as his OD was, he went quickly, whereas you could draw their suffering out for ages with this act of yours.”
Ben threw me finger guns. “You’re sharp. I liked that about you.”
I opened my mouth, but I had no pithy comeback this time. There was no possible outcome other than his death, yet I hesitated manifesting my scythe.
The wolf gave an impatient growl and charged at dybbuk-Ben, who bolted from the swing and scrambled up a wooden play structure.
Orange-green aura magic spilled over Ben’s body, undulating instead of forming a cocoon around him. Ben wrinkled his brow, the light pulsing more insistently, but it didn't cohere together. Guess that weed was stronger than he’d realized.
In one fluid leap, the wolf landed next to Ben, forcing him backwards over the swaying bridge. The shifter extended his claws, which glowed like they were made of pure light.
Killing dybbuks was Laurent’s job. So I wouldn’t be the one to avenge Ben. Not being able to murder the thing that wore his face didn’t make me a terrible person.
The dybbuk launched himself backwards, hitting the ground in a soft crouch, his toes barely making contact before he flew back to the swings with the wolf hot on his heels.
I dug my nails into my palms, feeding off the pain of my burn and wishing I could drown in the ocean of my self-loathing, but I only managed to take a few steps closer.
Ben ran through the swing set, hurling the seat up and over the bar. The chain caught the wolf on its way down, whacking the animal hard enough to make him yelp.
The beast bristled, his fur standing on end, his ears forward, and his lips bared in what looked like a deranged grin. He stalked Ben, driving him around and through the equipment, until the dybbuk lost his footing and tripped, his aura magic falling apart entirely.
The wolf gave a pleased huff, and it snapped me into action.
It didn’t matter if Laurent enjoyed killing these spirits or if it was his job or even his calling, it wasn’t right to add this death to the weight of all those he already lived with.
Black shadows swirled up my left arm, and the scythe appeared. “Stop!”
Growling softly, the shifter swung his muzzle my way, but at the sight of my weapon, he trotted around the dybbuk to block off any escape.
“Miriam,” Ben cried, his voice trembling. That flash of vulnerability was back on his face. “Save me!”
Rationally, I knew that the man who’d begun our date no longer existed. His soul or consciousness or whatever had been killed by the dybbuk, who now not only controlled Ben’s body, but his magic as well. Still, the freckles on his left hand were Ben’s, as was his slight Southern California drawl, lengthening his vowels.
But while I, too, looked like myself, I wasn’t the same person who’d started this date, either.
“Mut!” The Hebrew letters for die appeared on the blade as I swung my scythe. My determination made my aim true and I drove the tip directly into Ben’s heart.
His expression softened in surprise, one hand reaching out for me, then he crumpled to the ground, the light draining from his eyes.
The host body was dead.
A seething mass of crimson and gray exploded out of his corpse—the dybbuk now freed and attacking me in a whirlwind of fury.
The world crystalized into a heightened clarity: Ben’s black frames discarded in the sand, the rumbling bass of a passing car a few streets over, the smell of mulch.
I slashed the scythe through the dybbuk’s mass, all the color leaching out of it, turning it as pale and bloodless as a corpse’s skin. The spirit imploded with a sucking noise and winked out of existence, and yet I couldn’t stop slashing at the empty air. This dybbuk had taken something precious from me and from everyone who’d known this great guy.
My rage left me all at once, and spent, I sank onto the ground next to Ben, committing his face to memory before I closed his lids. The playground was quiet and there was no sign of the wolf. Hugging my knees to my chest, I recited the first line of the Mourner’s Kaddish under my breath.
Yitgadal v-yitkadash sh’mei rab, b’alma di v’ra chirutei…
I couldn’t remember the rest, so I sent a wish for Ben to rest in peace, the breeze washing over us both like Mother Nature’s benediction.
Footsteps drew near.
“I’ve called the Lonestars to retrieve the body.” Laurent crouched down next to me. He must have shifted back and found his clothes by the track. “You can go if you want.”
I nodded. There would be questions, and I had no desire to get on the radar of the magic police. Not that I’d be in trouble for killing a dybbuk, just that with my past, I’d rather they not know I existed at all. “I’m sorry, I chickened out.”
“The first time I had to destroy a dybbuk in the body of a friend…” He clamped his lips tight and shook his head. “Let’s just say you handled it better than I did.”
“He wasn’t a friend. Not yet. But…” I shrugged, blinking rapidly to clear my damp eyes.
Laurent’s face was clouded with worry and he watched me carefully, so I forced out a joking tone, hoping he couldn’t see the hole in my chest. “We’re lucky that dybbuks aren’t the Casa Gelato of the supernatural world.”
“Casa what?” He sat down next to me.
I planted my hand on my hip. “How do you not know Casa Gelato? It’s the greatest gelato place in the city.”
He scooted back on his butt, his hands outstretched to ward me off. “Are you okay? Will you snap at me if you don’t get fed?”
“You mean, am I hangry?” I refrained from looking at Ben’s corpse.
“Another ridiculous English expression,” he muttered. “Like anyone is going to be fun if they need food. It is redundant.”
“I’m fine. I’m making a comparison. Rather than the 238 flavors that Casa Gelato serves, with dybbuks, it’s more like there’s this shady corner store with a dusty freezer filled with a handful of shitty treats that aren’t even real ice cream, just that junk they call ‘frozen desserts.’”
Laurent gaped at me, his brows furrowed.
I rubbed my hand over my mouth. “Do I have something on my face?”
He cautiously tapped my forehead like he was scared of what he might unleash.
“All I’m saying” —I slapped his hand away— “is that it’s good that they have limited patterns of behavior.”
“That’s what you were saying?”
“Obv…” I scrubbed my hand over my face, my capacity for teasing sharply evaporating. “Does killing dybbuks ever get easier when you know the person?”
“No,” he said softly.
I exhaled, the world a little dimmer. “If nothing else, I’ve accepted my new normal.”
“What’s new about it?”
“You’re kidding, right?”
“I’ve never been more serious,” he said. “There’s no single formula for what constitutes normal. Everyone’s life is unique, filled with their own ups and downs. Right now you’re grieving Ben. And that’s okay. It doesn’t matter if he was a dybbuk in the end or not, the person you knew is gone now, and that’s a tragedy.”
“How do I deal with all this and still have a happy life?”
Laurent was silent for a bit, his expression thoughtful. “Maybe you don’t.”
“Well, that’s depressing.” I dropped my chin to my chest, my shoulders slumped.
“What I mean to say…” He spoke with flustered gestures. “Doesn’t everyone seize happiness where they can? It’s not this filter you drop down over your life, et voilà. It’s the tragedy and bullshit we experience that makes things sweeter. That define the happiness.”
“Maybe I need to grieve my notions of what constitutes a happy life,” I joked.
“Maybe you do.”
I cocked my head to look at him. “Are you happy, Laurent?”
From the hints I’d gotten about his life, he had his share of tragedy. Perhaps too much tragedy, I thought.
“Some days.” He took my uninjured hand. “You did what you had to do tonight. No one else is going to suffer. There’s happiness in that.” He hung on for a moment longer, then with a squeeze, he let go.
“Thanks for being there.” I stood up.
Laurent pushed to his feet as well. “Yeah, well, next time you’re having a bad date, don’t come crying to me.”
“You’re a jerk.” I smiled to take the sting out of the words.
He gave his infuriating Gallic shrug. “I am French.”
“Trust me, I never forget that fact.” I paused, folding my grief into solace that I’d live to fight another day. “Goodnight, Huff ’n’ Puff.”
“Goodnight, Mitzi.” Our fingers brushed one final time.
Then with a silent farewell to Ben, I left, shadows swirling around me as I strolled into the night.
Q1) Tell us about your book
Throwing Shade is a a paranormal women’s fiction with all the complex world building, mythology, supernatural creatures, and tropes of urban fantasy that I love writing but featuring a heroine who is a fabulous dame in her forties. Her self-awareness and battle scars don’t just extend to the magic mysteries that she finds herself embroiled in, it also extends to her takes on love and sex, which are very different once you’ve had a kid and been divorced, than for a single woman in her twenties. It’s wonderful writing a character with complex flaws, and strengths thanks to her life experiences.
There was this one day, while I was still teaching screenwriting (I was a screenwriter for 12 years before jumping into novel writing), when a group of my film school students had an argument about whether a female character in her forties would still have any sexual desire or be considered sexy. Most were arguing that the male character would go for a younger woman. But I remember sitting there thinking “you’re kidding me, right? Am I supposed to just be some sexless crone now?”
I’d been so happy to turn forty because I’d gotten rid of a lot of negative thinking, especially around my body image, and worrying about how other people saw me, and yet I kept feeling like even though I’d broken out of this box, there were a lot of others trying to keep me inside it.
That got me thinking about invisibility as a strength, and the idea that if you’re invisible, no one sees you coming, which led me to Miriam's magic.
Ultimately, it’s a story of empowerment.
Q2) Why did you focus on myths/legends from that particular region?
In both my urban fantasy and paranormal women’s fiction, I explore my Jewish heritage through my main characters and the mythologies I draw upon. I was an avid reader growing up, but I never saw myself reflected unless it was in a book about the Holocaust. Those are crucial stories to tell, but I wanted a Jewish girl going through a wardrobe to a magical land or having adventures. So, I decided to write those stories for women and combine them with steamy romance, because I love that, too.
Q3) Who is your favorite mythical figure?
Lilith. I’ve always loved the “bad” girl (Veronia in the Archie comics, Rizzo in Grease), but when I was younger, I felt this pressure to say that I identified Betty or Sandy. As I got older, I became more and more annoyed by the idea that men (even fictional ones) get to be complicated and flawed but women have to be likeable. Even fictional female characters are subjected to this ridiculous notion. Lilith, for me, was the first example of a woman standing up for herself and owning her sexuality. She may have been created as a cautionary tale, but I find her inspirational.
Q4) If you could choose to hang out with one mythical God, who would it be and why?
Not a God, but I'd hang out with Lilith, no question.
Q5) Do you plan on writing similar books in the future?
Yes. There is still a long ways to go in this Magic After Midlife series with Miriam’s story. A Shade Too Far (Magic After Midlife, #3) released on October 18 and I’m hoping to go for 10 books in the series. :)
A global wanderer, former screenwriter, and total cynic with a broken edit button, Deborah Wilde writes funny urban fantasy and paranormal women’s fiction.
Her stories feature sassy women who kick butt, strong female friendships, and swoony, sexy romance. She’s all about the happily ever after, with a huge dose of hilarity along the way.
Deborah lives in Vancouver, along with her husband, daughter, and asshole cat, Abra.
Irish or Celtic mythology also began as an oral tradition before being recorded in early Celtic Christian manuscripts.
Goddesses played a larger role in this mythology with The Morrigan, Danu, Brigid and Queen Medb being particularly prominent.
The myths of Ireland are told in four cycles, combining the Irish people and various Gods and magical beings. There was an emphasis on heroes and warriors fighting various battles that helped shape the country.
Q&A With Maria Vermisoglou
1) Tell us about your book
The book follows Zaz, who’s trying to make a living while taking care of her sick mother. Until one day, her best friend gives her a statuette of Themis, goddess of Justice, and everything changes. Gods are real and so are the monsters. The darkness covers the city, and the world is in peril. Will Zaz believe in herself and her powers before it’s too late?
2) Why did you focus on mythology/legends from that particular region?
It all started with the cover. Two friends showed it to me at the same time (!) so how could I say no? Since I’m Greek, I’m familiar with most mythology legends. Although, to be honest, I didn’t know that one. I researched the original myth, but to my utter surprise, there were only three paragraphs dedicated to Themis, so I made my own story, combining myths and monsters. Hopefully, I did the story justice.
3) Who is your favorite mythical figure?
Athena, goddess of wisdom. To win with cleverness instead of brutal force is something magical. Besides, the expressions on the others’ faces is reward enough. Ha, ha. But in all seriousness, Athena rocks. I believe she ranks above all gods because she’s smart.
4) if you could choose to hang out with one mythical God, who would it be and why?
Athena, so I can learn from the best. She has some interesting adventures where she used her brains and still won.
5) Do you plan on writing similar books in the future?
Yes! Zaz was the first installment of the Powers Rising series and there will be more to follow. Each one will feature a different god/goddess. My next story will be about Tyche, goddess of Luck!
Maria Vermisoglou is the author of multiple paranormal fantasy books and has an obsession for bringing witches to life.
Greek Mythology began as an oral tradition, which was later recorded by the likes of Homer in his epic Illiad and the Odyssey. They focus mostly on the Greek Gods, a pantheon of beings who had dominion over various aspects of the Earth and life itself. Some of the more famous Gods are Aphrodite - the Goddess of Love and Zeus - the king of the Gods. They each had their own abilities and were prone to interfering with the affairs of mortals. They were shown to be deeply flawed and guilty of many things such as infidelity and murder. Stories of each God offer lessons which are still relevant today. Aphrodite for example was said to be incredibly vain and jealous and would find ways to punish women believed to be prettier than her. It did not usually end well for the mortals, but sometimes the Gods got their just desserts.
Along with the Gods there were many creatures and monsters in Greek myth such as the Minotaur, a half man, half bull and Medusa - a beautiful woman with snakes for hair, who had the ability to turn men to stone if they looked at her. Some of these creatures were born this way, a byproduct of a God and another monster, or even a human. Or they were cursed to be that way by one of the Gods.
The Gods resided on Mount Olympus and there were 12 original Gods -
The myths and legends featuring the Gods are vast and have shaped literature for thousands of years. Common retellings these days usually feature the Gods Hades and Persephone as they seem to be a popular couple - the Goddess of the Spring and the God of the Underworld. Many readers view this as a love story, rather than focusing on the original version in which Persephone was taken by Hades against her will.
You can find the stories online.
Q&A with Lily Luchesi
1) Tell us about your book
Morgana’s Revenge is my world’s retelling of the classic King Arthur legend.
Morgana Le Fay, known as the Princess of Poison, wants nothing more than to graduate school and become a potioneer, alongside her love, Guinevere.
When Camelot’s king, Uther Pendragon, is poisoned to death, his son Arthur gives the Coven an ultimatum: renounce magic and join Camelot, or die.
Now split between traitors and witches, Morgan must figure out how to stop the teenage king from destroying her home, especially since he now has Guinevere and Merlin at his side.
2) Why did you focus on mythology/legends from that particular region?
I didn’t choose it so much as it followed naturally. I originally wrote The Coven Princess, the first Coven Series book, and I pants everything. So when it came time for Harley, the main character, to research old potions for a poison cure, I wound up making Morgan Le Fay be the one who created the unique poison.
As I wrote that, my brain decided to think about Morgan and King Arthur and then Merlin’s legend popped up as I continued writing. So my brain wanted to write their story my way. I never chose to do it. It flowed out of me.
3) Who is your favorite mythical figure?
Nyx is one of my favorites. Mother of Thantos and Hypnos, death and sleep respectively, and the goddess of night. Her children, her life, her birth, it’s all so fascinating.
4) If you could choose to hang out with one mythical God, who would it be and why?
I wrote about the god Hermes in The Paranormal Detectives Series, and I really got to know him, so to speak, during my research. So I’d love to spend some time with him and have a little fun.
5) Do you plan on writing similar books in the future?
I have already written the future of Morgan and Merlin’s descendants in the Sinclair family with The Coven Series. People who read Morgana’s Revenge can read TCS and discover what Chiara/Morgan’s pendant symbolizes and how Morgan and Merlin’s skills evolved and are apparent in their heirs.
I do want to write some Egyptian legends, as well as more Romans, too. Eventually, I will.
Snippet of Morgana’s Revenge:
THE COVEN WAS abuzz with the news that someone murdered the human king.
“What do you think it was?” Morgan asked her friends at teatime. “Belladonna is easy to obtain, even for humans. Or perhaps hemlock? Could someone have had the foresight to procure strychnine from Asia?”
“You are far too excited about this topic, love,” Gwen said gently, patting Morgan’s shoulder.
Fiona scoffed. “Then that means you had to have done it, Poison Princess. No one else has access to your little lab.”
“It is exciting,” Gwen interrupted. “Mysterious. And perhaps now his son will give up trying to destroy anything non-human.”
“How old is Arthur again?” Accolon asked.
“A year our senior, or thereabouts,” Morgan replied.
“And they allow him to be king?” Gwen commented. “Imagine if Aritza chose one of us as her successor and then retired in a year’s time. No self-respecting Coven would accept a teenage ruler.”
“Greece has had younger,” Merlin spoke up. “So has Egypt.”
“We are not Greece,” Gwen snapped. “And no one was speaking to you, Emrys.”
His shoulders slumped almost imperceptibly and Morgan was torn between comforting him ― as she had for most of their childhood ― or admonishing Gwen. In the end, she did neither as he walked away to eat at another table, most likely alone. The same place Morgan would be if her friends had not brought her into their group four years prior.
Was it guilt or nostalgia that ate at her the rest of the afternoon?
* * *
That weekend, once lessons were done and Morgan completed some of her current research, she invited Guinevere on a moonlit picnic. They could have alone time while their crystals charged beside them under the full moon.
Morgan set out bread, dried meats, cheese, and elderberry wine she made herself, along with magically lit candles.
Gwen arrived moments after Morgan finished setting it up and gasped in pleasure. “Oh, how cute!” She gracefully knelt down on the blanket and kissed Morgan softly.
Morgan’s stomach fluttered at the feeling and the sight of her happy blue eyes. It had been difficult to assimilate into Gwen’s friend group, and when the beautiful witch had kissed her last year outside Household Charms class, she thought her heart might explode from happiness, having been interested in her since she was thirteen.
She felt like she was always trying to catch up with the others, and now seemed to finally be on equal footing.
They ate, talked, and kissed under the light of the moon. Eventually, Guinevere laid her head in Morgan’s lap and they sat like that, comfortable and as in love as two teenagers could be.
“What do you want to do when we finally are done with lessons?” Gwen asked.
“Probably stay on or go to Europe and apprentice under a potioneer, if any will have me,” Morgan replied. “You?”
“Rule the world,” Gwen said.
Morgan laughed. “Seriously.”
“Who said I was joking?” Gwen grinned and nuzzled against Morgan’s hand that had been playing in her honey blonde hair.
Morgan leaned down and placed a playful kiss to the tip of Gwen’s nose.
In the distance, there came the sound of galloping hooves.
“You hear that?” Morgan asked, cocking her head.
“What? Oh. Sometimes I believe you have supernatural hearing. That’s far away,” Gwen commented. “Is it coming from the direction of Camelot?”
“I believe so.” Morgan moved to stand, which made Gwen have to get up, too.
“Do we warn the Queen? Or the Guard?” Gwen wondered.
“The Guard. Go on, I will stay, so they do not get too close to the castle,” Morgan decided.
The Guards were faster than whomever was coming, and their presence alerted other Coven members. Soon, the castle courtyard was filled with witches of all ages. Queen Aritza stood, flanked by Guards, front and centre.
“What is going on?” Merlin asked Morgan, startling her at his quiet approach.
“I am unsure,” she replied. “But I have a bad feeling.” Gwen came on her other side and took her hand as everyone waited to see if it was friend or foe.
In a way, it turned out to be neither.
A lone herald riding a steed came into view. He carried a rolled up scroll under one arm and dismounted. Morgan thought he was younger than she, perhaps only fifteen.
“Halt!” one of the Guards said. “Who are you and what is your business here?”
“My name is of no importance. I come with a note from King Arthur Pendragon, ruler of Camelot, for the entirety of the Coven of Avalon.” He cleared his throat and tried to sound authoritative as he began to read from the scroll.
“‘I, Arthur Pendragon, hereby extend the following offer to all members of the royal Coven.
“‘My father, the late Uther Pendragon, once vowed to eradicate all witches from Avalon. I, however, am of a more genial disposition, and wish for camaraderie. If, in a fortnight’s time, the Coven members choose to renounce their magic and join the kingdom of Camelot, I will spare them.
“Those who do not will face my army’s wrath as my father intended, to eradicate the world of unGodly creatures.
“‘Please heed my warning and join. I do not wish to cause harm to any of you unnecessarily.’”
The herald was allowed to leave, though Morgan privately thought that ‘shooting the messenger’ was a superb idea. Queen Aritza turned and faced the majority of the Coven.
“You heard the little King. You may give up the Goddess’ blessings and live a mortal, or you may honour her and die a witch. I will leave it up for each of you to decide."
What Makes Myths & Legends So Important?
Myths & Legends came about as a way for man to find answers to questions, share messages and offer people hope and understanding. This ancient form of storytelling would have been carried down verbally through the generations and it would become a part of their culture and history - much in the way we are told fairytales as a child.
Myths however, do not always have happy endings and can be also used to serve as a warning to people. In Greek myth, for example, the story of the Trojan horse showed people that you should be wary of an enemy offering gifts. This would be a particular myth that a lot of people know, even on the other side of the world. It continues to exist because the message is a good one.
Our authors featured during this month have all taken inspiration from myths and legends and incorporated them into their stories. Some are modern day retellings, others contain elements from different stories. You will be able to read interviews, excerpts and short stories from them and you will be able to purchase their books to with links to seller sites.
We hope you enjoy the event.
About the Author:
S. K. Gregory is an author, editor and blogger. She currently resides in Northern Ireland.
“Description begins in the writer’s imagination, but should finish in the reader’s.”